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NOT US. (Third world country i.e. There is no government support of any kind) This is going to be a long one. I'd appreciate it if you'd read through it, but if you can't
TLDR; My toxic 52h/week with 20+ hours shifts workplace is actively traumatizing me. I have food, housing and utilities covered. I just want to quit so I can focus on building skills to change careers. Is this smart?
Hey guys. Please help me with this. I've been struggling with this. I work in healthcare as a junior doctor. I had a greater than 1 year career gap after graduation and was surprised to be hired to the place I'm currently working as I felt unemployable. It's a dead end job with no progression because I can't pass the exams needed. Some background this is the same hospital where I worked during my graduation.
After a few months of trauma-therapy, about over a year of inner child work, and I've finally discovered why I'm stuck acedemically/professionally. Aside from my cognitive weaknesses this line of work is associated with alot of trauma for me (something I just uncovered in therapy). I've decided I'm ready to change careers. I never had the chance to work through what I liked during my early days so I don't know what would work for me and I want to give myself time to discover and learn so I can actually build a career for myself but I understand that it isn't realistically possible. I found a master's programme that really interested me and will atleast be able to provide me with a stable, well-paying, 9 to 5 if nothing else. In my country pays are shit and no decent jobs unless you have a masters atleast. I need to study for GRE and get a good score if I'm to get in. I need time and low stress in order to be able to manage by executive dysfunction enough to study and with my current job I haven't been able to at all and the entrance test is in two months.
My last shift I had an even more traumatizing experience at work. A new supervisor, in a gathering of about 15 colleagues and students proceeded to call me out regarding my decisions and assessments for appropriately 20 mins in front of the patient's family it wasn't even formal calling out but just literally shit talking me. My senior didn't assess the patient like they had to. (I'm very poor knowledge-wise and haven't been able to cope with it to this day but work hard so am considered a decent worker). They said someone complimented me and I guess they were trying to judge if it was warranted. "you don't know how to do this!?" "you've probably never done this before, have you?" "don't lie to me" " no way she did this" " asks me a question and I reply to the best of my shit knowledge proceeds to make fun of my answer" "where do you think youre going come back here" "don't stand over there stand infront of me" "is your stethoscope old? What brand is it? (implying I'm using a shit one" " laughs I asked you to take it from me why are you coming here?" " referring to group she isn't listening is she?" "looks like you've never done this before" "you need to study" you get the gist. On a sad side note: You know how we're always taking about how our trauma symptoms are defences in childhood I actually experienced it play out in real time when this happened and lol I believe it now. If it wasn't for dissociation I don't know how I would've gone on through the day.
I'm tired. So done. A part of me says just quit immediately and start studying for your masters and focus on building skills for a job. Another part says to not quit until you have another job lined up but the response to that is you've been trying to do this for a while just accept that you're not capable of building skills while also working here with all the trauma work and symptom management you have to do in general and also because of your job so can't build skills and manage symptoms and work and also apply to new places like today hustling worker. I really want this masters and I really want an engaging fruitful career. I'm afraid if I quit ill end up back to the state I was in during my career gap (super suicidal literally the worse mental space I've been in) but another part says you're not the same person anymore. 1 of my two primary abusers doesn't live with me anymore and I have much better symptom control. BUT another part says you'll loose your income and so your super expensive trauma therapist approximately 30% of my salary went into trauma therapy but the results are incredible so I feel it was totally worth it and alot of my salary goes into what I call cptsd-tax. The reply is well you can get into freelance work.
Anyways I'm so unsure and my mind feels like it'll explode. Thoughts? After crying and feeling like shit all day some parts of me are beginning to feel resentful towards me that I keep putting myself in this situation. I want to take the risk and quit but I feel like I'm yearning for validation in this decision. As I type this I'm hoping everyone says yeah go quit ASAP but I know logically that won't be the case. I'm so confused but also feel a little certainty that even if I did quit I'd make it somehow. Let me know what you think I'm desperate for support.
Thank you to anyone who read this. I apologise of any formatting issues as I'm on mobile.

I have completed the Institute Quest to get X6-88 as a companion, he was available immediately after the board meeting and I picked him up and began to travel with him, I kept him for many missions and even got him to max affinity. Though when I went back to my personal settlement I heard MacCready sound sad and felt bad so switched off of X6 and traded him out for Mac for a few missions.
When I came back to my settlement to re pick up X6-88 it wouldn't let me enter dialogue with him, my sole would "ahem" or "hey" and X6 would say something along the lines of "it was an honor" or completely ignore my guy. Sometimes I would click talk and nothing would happen. I am not enemies with the Institute, BoS, Railroad, etc
Thought maybe my settlement was bugging so I used the workshop to send his ass back to Sanctuary and man's wont even leave the settlement, no matter how long I wait, how far i fast travel, etc
I'm deep in the game, I do not want to restart, but I miss having my cute courser follow me about, I want to fix it but if it's unfixable I'm content with having Mac or Hancock follow me
Just wanted to know if anyone was having this issue with X6 as I've seen posts about something related to this but not exactly this and everyone was saying to let him go back to the Institute but since he's in a settlement for me I can't send him back ;-;

Irish drama The Banshees Of Inisherin walked home empty-handed on Sunday after being nominated for nine Academy Awards at the Oscars show. But the film shouldn’t be too sad since it’s received the biggest prize of all: a Pac-Man-like video game adaptation as a free game in your web browser. “It was an interesting challenge,” says Cogs & Marvel’s creative director, Jon Hozier-Byrne Link to article

My friend got broken up with bcz their ex figured out he was aromantic. My friend was a bit dramatic but I thought I just wasn't understanding their feelings bcz I'm aro and autistic but now I uploaded a picture to my story where my aromantic flag was visible in the background. They replied saying "I have a justified hatred for that flag" I said "it's not really justified but okay" Them: "he should've realized before he got into a relationship. And he was in relationships before me too. What's so difficult to understand" That hurt me bcz I actually realized I'm aro while in a romantic relationship as well. I also saw how their ex broke up with them and it was very caring and understanding but they're ignoring me now and I don't know what to do. I don't want to stop being friends with them bcz they're a real gossip and will tell all our shared friends I'm a horrible person or something and I don't want to lose those friends. What should I do?

Hello Everyone
Here I am trying to get this amazing game so I will try to explain in my own words what is Monster Hunter. I've watched a thousand videos, a bunch of gameplay, I'm going crazy wanting to play this game. I really want this, so much!!!!!!!
I'm 23 years old. My hobbies are playing games and watching movies. I've been playing games for a loong times and lately all I do is playing games, because I've been through knee surgery and it hurts like hell, So I using playing games to forget a little about the pain.
So I've been a big fan of monster hunter, Have played like almost 300 hours in my old ps4 with my friends. when monster hunter rise was released I was happy but at the same time I was sad, because it is a monster hunter that i would not be able to play, but last year capcom announced that in January of 2023 Monster Hunter Rise would release on ps4, and the day have come, the game has released and looking so amazing, but like I said I've been through knee surgery and can't spend money on the game. and I hope to put at least more 300 hours on monster hunter rise
What is Monster Hunter :
Well what the name says it is a game about hunting monster and gathering resources to craft and created amazing weapons and armor, and rinse and repeat, with amazing loop gameplay, you will fight amazing monster and created more and more weapons , but you think what is the endgame of Monster Hunter? I will tell you now, the endgame of monster hunter is not fighting monster or crafting weapons, the end game is FASHION, exactly fashion in Monster Hunter is a integral part of the game. While you are defeating monster, you can look good doing it and this games has some amazing fashions. So to summarise Monster Hunter is a game with amazing gameplay loop, that you can sink a hundred of hours ( wich I'm want to do ) crafting weapons and armor, and don't forget about the fashion.
So I would be greatly appreciated if anybody could help me.
Here a link of the game on Playstation Store
https://store.playstation.com/en-us/product/UP0102-PPSA08033_00-FULLGAME00000001
Here is my psn https://psnprofiles.com/Sucrasnevo
Thanks and sorry for my bad english

I’ve been skinny my entire life, and I remember being body shamed ever since I could walk. Extended family made jokes and pointed out how weird my body looked like I was a circus freak. My mom made fun of me for not having a big enough chest when I was shopping for graduation dresses.
Almost everyone I’ve met in my personal life has to make some tasteless comment about my body too. Last month, I visited my childhood best friend who I haven’t seen in years, and her mom just had to express (unprompted) that after all these years I was still really skinny, and my friend agreed. I awkwardly laughed, but it hurt me inside. I gained 8 pounds since I last saw them and was proud of it, but it didn’t change my appearance the way I thought it did.
The experiences and comments that negatively affected me the most came from romantic partners. Ever since I started dating, I’ve been made aware that a lot of men prefer thicker and curvier bodies. I always assumed men who got with me found my body attractive, (I mean, who wouldn’t assume that) so it was a big slap to the face when they’d reveal they actually hated my thin frame.
I’ve had ex boyfriends tell me I have “no ass” and should start running or go to the gym “to get one.” I’m Asian and I had an ex tell me that he preferred Latinas and black women for their bodies. My last ex stopped having sex with me for 6 months of our relationship, and I was worried it was because he wasn’t attracted to my body, but he insisted I was wrong. I investigated if he was cheating, but discovered he stopped the sex because he was too busy getting his rocks off to “gym thick” and “big butts in yoga pants” porn. That stung.
I’ve started to feel disgusted when I look at my own selfies. I parrot comments that I’ve heard or read about myself like, “ew I have no shape.” “Ew look at how bony my thighs look.” A part of me does feel sad I think this way, but the other part agrees that I do look too skinny and need to “fix” it. I try to eat a lot more because I go to the gym, but I’m concerned I might start binge eating if I’m not careful.
My current boyfriend is worried that I have body dysmorphia because I’ve been insistent upon going to the gym to get bigger thighs and glutes. I think I am suffering from body dysmorphia. I remember people from my past saying how flat my butt is every time I look in the mirror, and it pushes me to keep going to the gym in the hopes that one day, I will have the body I want and will no longer be bothered by comments like that.
My boyfriend knows I’m upset about not making the progress I want because my chronic knee issues make it difficult to do heavier leg exercises. I do feel like crap for causing him concern about my body image issues, but this insecurity is just too strong. I’ve heard some women tell me they wished they had my body, but it never makes me feel better. It doesn’t make me feel better about all the body shaming I endured.
What do I do?

I ended up ordering LSD online along with MDMA and some THC edibles, I am pretty inexperienced with drugs as I only started experimenting with them after I fell into a depression and I got very interested in testing out more substances. So it was about 8:00pm and I was really bored so I decided I wanted to test out my new “toys”. First I took 1 tab of LSD(100ug) along side 100mg of pure MDMA and 50mg of THC in the form of a capsule, I am quite an impatient person and I mustered up this bright idea to take 3 more tabs of acid(100ug each) and oh god was that a mistake, I quickly felt the affects of the LSD run through my system, I walked to my bathroom and I heard my mom call out my name and I was convinced it was a hallucination so I walked back to my room without responding or going to see what she wanted and it felt as if I had teleported to my room I forgot that I had even went to the bathroom (I think it was the THC that made me forget I had left my room), I went to lay down in my bed to put on a show or listen to music and my mom walked in and started questioning me and confronting me about condoms she had found in my trash(I am quite young so she wasn’t pleased) and I was just sitting there petrified hiding my face under my duvet waiting for her to leave I looked up at her sitting on the side of my bed and two lanky, boney and veiny arms with talons on the end protruded from her back and started snipping at me, at this point I was both amazed and completely terrified as I’ve never experienced anything like this. Shortly after my mom left my room I started listening to music and it seemed the speed of the song, the pitch and the volume kept changing after each beat and it sounded terrible, it didn’t even sound like music at that point, I quickly shut it off and just sat there looking at my chest and arms, my arm hair grew rapidly and moved in random directions, my skin seemed to separate from my muscle and flesh and the space between started inflating, my skin had a blue hue and was almost transparent, I could see my bones and they had a bright orange outline and glow, and I looked at my chest and the same was happening with my chest hair, rib cage and skin, I could feel it too, it wasn’t painful at all it was somewhat pleasant, it felt slightly cold and I could feel the inflation. After I was done staring at that for about 1-4 hours (I had no concept of time😭) I looked at my d*ck and it started to morph into a mushroom and small black bugs started crawling out of it, usually I am extremely terrified of bugs but this didn’t seem to bother me as I knew it was just a hallucination, when I looked at things such as my arm or the wall it would seem as if I was becoming that object, it would feel like my vision was hyper focused on that one thing and would be zoomed in. Long story short I sat there for about 14 hours staring at things and watching TikTok. I was well into the next day by now and I was still having hallucinations, they seemed to be much less intense but I still had the psychological effects of the LSD and I was wildly uncomfortable and irritated that the trip had not ended yet, I slowly spiralled into madness scrounging the internet for information to stop the trip, I kept trying to fall asleep or find a way to calm myself and nothing worked, I laid down and crawled under my duvet crying and praying to god it would end. I had somehow convinced myself my girlfriend was going to leave me and I wrote down a bunch of deranged messages to myself in my phones note saying if I didn’t get her back my life would be over, I then spam texted my girlfriend begging her to save me but I got no response because she was sleeping and I then came to the conclusion she had died and I had to pray to revive her and bring her back from the afterlife, still no response then I had just thought it was all over and she’d never be back so I sat in my bed surrounded by pillows and blankets for some reason😭and cried to god asking why he had done this to me, at this point I was about 19 hours into my trip and I thought it was literally never going to end and that I was permanently insane because I had read online trips usually last 12 hours at most. Eventually I slightly calmed myself down and listened to music even though It still sounded awful, and I just laid there having random outbursts of extreme sadness and anxiety. I then went and got my dog to try and find some way to comfort myself and it did work a bit, i laid in my bed with my dog for another few hours until like 11:30pm or so and I was so sick of it and I just took a bunch of night time cold medicine and cbd and eventually fell asleep. My trip ended up lasting about 25 hours somehow and it was absolute hell for the final like 12 hours I was just in a state of panic and extreme depression, I plan to take LSD and a magic mushroom chocolate bar with some of my friends in a Few days, I look at this as a learning experience to never do psychedelics alone and to always have some Xanax ready incase I start freaking out😭even though it was terrible past the about half way mark it was still an incredible experience and I will definitely be doing it again. Sorry if this is scattered and terribly written, I am not good at writing stories😭

I ended up ordering LSD online along with MDMA and some THC edibles, I am pretty inexperienced with drugs as I only started experimenting with them after I fell into a depression and I got very interested in testing out more substances. So it was about 8:00pm and I was really bored so I decided I wanted to test out my new “toys”. First I took 1 tab of LSD(100ug) along side 100mg of pure MDMA and 50mg of THC in the form of a capsule, I am quite an impatient person and I mustered up this bright idea to take 3 more tabs of acid(100ug each) and oh god was that a mistake, I quickly felt the affects of the LSD run through my system, I walked to my bathroom and I heard my mom call out my name and I was convinced it was a hallucination so I walked back to my room without responding or going to see what she wanted and it felt as if I had teleported to my room I forgot that I had even went to the bathroom (I think it was the THC that made me forget I had left my room), I went to lay down in my bed to put on a show or listen to music and my mom walked in and started questioning me and confronting me about condoms she had found in my trash(I am quite young so she wasn’t pleased) and I was just sitting there petrified hiding my face under my duvet waiting for her to leave I looked up at her sitting on the side of my bed and two lanky, boney and veiny arms with talons on the end protruded from her back and started snipping at me, at this point I was both amazed and completely terrified as I’ve never experienced anything like this. Shortly after my mom left my room I started listening to music and it seemed the speed of the song, the pitch and the volume kept changing after each beat and it sounded terrible, it didn’t even sound like music at that point, I quickly shut it off and just sat there looking at my chest and arms, my arm hair grew rapidly and moved in random directions, my skin seemed to separate from my muscle and flesh and the space between started inflating, my skin had a blue hue and was almost transparent, I could see my bones and they had a bright orange outline and glow, and I looked at my chest and the same was happening with my chest hair, rib cage and skin, I could feel it too, it wasn’t painful at all it was somewhat pleasant, it felt slightly cold and I could feel the inflation. After I was done staring at that for about 1-4 hours (I had no concept of time😭) I looked at my d*ck and it started to morph into a mushroom and small black bugs started crawling out of it, usually I am extremely terrified of bugs but this didn’t seem to bother me as I knew it was just a hallucination, when I looked at things such as my arm or the wall it would seem as if I was becoming that object, it would feel like my vision was hyper focused on that one thing and would be zoomed in. Long story short I sat there for about 14 hours staring at things and watching TikTok. I was well into the next day by now and I was still having hallucinations, they seemed to be much less intense but I still had the psychological effects of the LSD and I was wildly uncomfortable and irritated that the trip had not ended yet, I slowly spiralled into madness scrounging the internet for information to stop the trip, I kept trying to fall asleep or find a way to calm myself and nothing worked, I laid down and crawled under my duvet crying and praying to god it would end. I had somehow convinced myself my girlfriend was going to leave me and I wrote down a bunch of deranged messages to myself in my phones note saying if I didn’t get her back my life would be over, I then spam texted my girlfriend begging her to save me but I got no response because she was sleeping and I then came to the conclusion she had died and I had to pray to revive her and bring her back from the afterlife, still no response then I had just thought it was all over and she’d never be back so I sat in my bed surrounded by pillows and blankets for some reason😭and cried to god asking why he had done this to me, at this point I was about 19 hours into my trip and I thought it was literally never going to end and that I was permanently insane because I had read online trips usually last 12 hours at most. Eventually I slightly calmed myself down and listened to music even though It still sounded awful, and I just laid there having random outbursts of extreme sadness and anxiety. I then went and got my dog to try and find some way to comfort myself and it did work a bit, i laid in my bed with my dog for another few hours until like 11:30pm or so and I was so sick of it and I just took a bunch of night time cold medicine and cbd and eventually fell asleep. My trip ended up lasting about 25 hours somehow and it was absolute hell for the final like 12 hours I was just in a state of panic and extreme depression, I plan to take LSD and a magic mushroom chocolate bar with some of my friends in a Few days, I look at this as a learning experience to never do psychedelics alone and to always have some Xanax ready incase I start freaking out😭even though it was terrible past the about half way mark it was still an incredible experience and I will definitely be doing it again. Sorry if this is scattered and terribly written, I am not good at writing stories😭

In collaboration with former DD player and dataminer u/moka795 (who left the game after "poor" implementation of his favourite character) I present to you our Reynauld research project. This thing was created in order to shed light on the upcoming character in DD2. Unlike with BH and Vestal, crusader barks were well-hidden by the Devs in game files after BH october update. Luckily, the information became clear to me and soon it will be the same to you. Without further ado, let's get straight to the point. The main reason behind the invisibility of Crusader barks is probably a deliberate mistake made by Devs in their assignment. The thing is, Bounty Hunter uses those with no name instead of his ones (pics related) Let's have a look at them and have a deep dive in Crusader lore. Starting with clearly objective facts. As we all know, Crusader wears a plate armour and brandishes a sword, while BH favours a scale armour and one-handed axe (pic number 1) Dent is a type of damage that usually appears on plate armour, whereas damaged coat of scales often have its components (scales) loose or missing. Here is a very old pic of BH leaked lines in which he confirms the latter https://i.imgur.com/UCcbIuF_d.webp?maxwidth=760&fidelity=grand (Note: as from now BH says differents line which you can see on picture 1) Moving to the whetstone. True BH's bark read: "There's a notch in my axe...", when the fake one (Crusader?) says: "A dull blade will doom us". It highlight Crusaders leader nature and mentions his weapon, which certainly cannot be confused with an axe. There is more. Amorous songbook reaction of these characters also differs (pic 2). BH takes of his iconic helmet in readiness for giving smoochies. Crusader sadly reminiscents about those he left behind. According to dd wiki, the Crusader used to love somebody and was even married once. This was confirmed in his origin comic where he leaves his wife and child to embark on the crusade, but was changed so much by the war that he chose to remain on the crusade rather than return to his family. His possible dd2 bark hits the bull's-eye. In general, I can say that most fake Bounty Hunter lines (a.k.a. Crusader ones) contradicts his true ones (pic 3), because he does not usually act like a kind person and prefers to take part in recreation in solitude and silence. Crusader, on the other hand is kind and friendly (remember his camping barks in dd1). Cru offers you to teach how to blow rings with pipeweed, whereas BH quietly exhales. With boxing gloves Crusader warns you not to hit him under the belt (cuz this activity is new to him), while Bounty Hunter stays in character and says "I won't go easy". There is also an unnamed (Crusader?) reaction to leeches that states "Even the medicine hungers for my blood" (pic 4). It might suggest that his backstory may show us how he, perhaps, become a fallen warrior (Just like the vestal), but these are all my guesses. That's the end. Once again I want to thank u/moka795 for the provided information.

Not quite sure if this is the right subreddit, so my apologies if it's not and feel free to delete ;-)
My 7mo baby goes to her grandma one day a week while I work. The other days she goes to daycare and she's on the waiting list for more days - but that might take ages.
My mom and I have a great relationship and I love that she's watching my LO and getting a strong bond with her. However, she has a boyfriend that she met about 3 years ago and while I don't dislike or distrust him necessarily, I don't fully trust him either - at least not like family. It's just different.
He treats LO like his own grandchild, which in a way is the best possible outcome and super sweet. However, I don't feel close enough to him yet to feel comfortable with this. It feels like he is oblivious to boundaries you normally have with people who aren't family. When I change LOs diaper, he often comes over to watch (not in a creepy way, but certainly annoying and making me ask him for some space every time) and he is very touchy with LO - again, not in a creepy way, but just... let's say he definitely wouldn't touch me in that way.
I'm not sure if I'm being overprotective, but it's just a gut feel and it doesn't feel right. A recent trigger was that they bought a baby bathtub "because she likes playing in water" but I'm like... there's a thousand activities she really likes for which she doesn't need to be naked. Don't bathe her if she's not dirty. And as long as she's too little to voice her own boundaries, I want her to not grow up thinking it's okay that everyone can just undress her or touch her.
Anyway, I feel really bad about this. I want to protect my baby, but I also really don't want to hurt their feelings and I'm just not ready to be so close and "happy family" with this person yet. I'm sure it will be different with time, but right now I'm just not there yet.
It's come to the point where I consider finding another daycare solution for this day, however it would be pretty sad to let go of my mom watching her. Later today I plan to talk to her about this and carefully check if it's an option that she watches LO alone, without boyfriend, until I'm more comfortable around him. But I'm pretty sure she's going to be super hurt and think I'm rude and ungrateful... In any case I want to lay some pretty strict ground rules about boundaries and where I want those with my child.
Anyone any advice? Am I being crazy and should I just let LO enjoy her time with her grandparents? I mean, she will probably grow up feeling that this person is her "real" grandpa. I don't want to sabotage that. Ugh... I have tried really hard over the past few years to bond with this guy and I've really invested in our relationship - but it just doens't feel right.

There have been many rumours that Teri Hatcher did not get on with the other 3 girls, and that she was difficult to work with. However, she never seems to bad mouth any of them or throw shade in interviews. Teri always has nice things to say even if she wasn't that close. I can't say the same for Eva, Marcia or Felicity who seem to treat her as if she doesn't exist or make sly digs at her in interviews. Their behaviour seems very "mean girl - esque" to me and its sad that as grown adults they act like high-schoolers by snubbing her. God, they don't have to like her but for the sake of respect they should at least acknowledge her contribution to the show.

I (28f) and my partner (35m) have been having some problems recently. I’ll start off by saying I’m the shyest person I know, I am so self conscious I even feel embarrassed crossing the street or walking into a shop let alone sex. Maybe it’s my autism or maybe my upbringing or maybe I’m just a broken human. Point is I hate myself and it makes sexual contact really, really hard.
I have never enjoyed sex, I used to do it because I thought I had to, if I went to a partners house it was like a thing I had to get through to enjoy their company. I was always shy, no lights, I’ve never opened my eyes during sex, dirty talk turns me off, I would refuse at least 75% of positions even in the dark as I wasn’t comfortable to get into them (69, riding etc) I have no idea how I got laid. Even if I got into it and relaxed a bit I’d feel embarrassed for days after.
My current partner of 8 years has erectile dysfunction. I didn’t notice at first as I thought he was taking stuff slow but nah. I never liked oral sex, I dislike it more than PiV sex. Not to say he isn’t good at it, I used to do it a lot more at the start of the relationship because I thought he was just leading up to sex.
However it’s been about a year, maybe longer since I let him go down on me and he really wants it. He says he gets his confidence from that and I should just relax. I’m never horny though and I don’t know what to do. He said he won’t leave me for it but also talks about it daily now. In his defence I really struggle with communication, and please, I know it’s childish but as I said I’m autistic and had a pretty bad upbringing where I got hit, a lot, from my mother. I struggle to open up, I’m terrified of healthily communication, I don’t even know how to do it without breaking down and crying and going non verbal. I don’t think he knows I could possibly go the rest of my life without sexual contact, where he said he doesn’t want to be an old man never having sex again.
I mean, he didn’t get off during our sessions. Maybe once or twice, but he doesn’t get hard at all so I have no idea what to do. I feel awkward. I am so lucky to have a man who wants me but I’m never horny. I can’t get into it if I’m never horny. I’m lost and kinda venting to be honest. I’m not expecting pleasant replies, it wouldn’t so nice but I usually get downvoted to fuck when I talk about my hang ups around sex which is sad as I thought this app was more inclusive than others. I’m in the dark, maybe one comment will open my mind to a new possibility. A new way of thinking. Or I’m being hopeful.
I wish I could be there for him sexually but I’m too shy, I feel too embarrassed during sex and even worse after. Last weekend he tried, he tried telling me what to do and I froze as speaking during sex just makes me panic, especially the words he used, he tried to guide my hand to his genitals and I froze, he tried to open my legs but I was locked up, he tried rubbing me all over and it just tickled and I didn’t like it. I’m stuck.
I had a blood test today to check my hormones so 🤞🏼

I’ll try to sum it up as shortly as I can My girlfriend and I have been dating 8 months and it’s going very well. I love her very much and I know she cares about me a lot. One problem is that whenever we have a small disagreement, or she does something that upset me, she gets sad that she upset me, but she always ends up crying and the time it takes for her to get over upsetting me is usually longer than the time for me to just get over it.
For example a few days ago, I was getting annoyed because she kept ignoring what I was trying to say (idk if it was intentional) to say a story, so I was already a little agitated Later that same night while telling me the story, part of the story mentioned how much of her extended family is racist, but she kept going into detail about what they were specifically saying. She’s Arab and I’m black. I honestly was getting quite hurt because I already knew this but she kept bringing it up. I got mad and after a few min of silence she apologized and I know she meant it and said she won’t mention it again.
I want to communicate with her about why I was annoyed to begin with even before the racist part of the story but idk how to tell her without her crying and being upset for the whole day. This goes further than just this but I feel like any time I have talk to her about something important or controversial, she cries and gets upset for half a day to a day , which makes me just not want to say it.
Thanks

Aka crushes It’ll always be you, it always has. But I don’t have you, and ur not mine, ur someone else’s most likely but if ur happy then I’m happy for you. So if we’re just gonna stay friends forever and nothing more I’m okay with that cause you’ll be somewhat in my life I told you how I felt I believe awhile back, it’s embarrassing I can’t believe I did that, I was blacked out and don’t remember saying all that I did to you and I don’t wanna know what I said but I think I kidna know I only remember little parts, kept blacking in and out ahhh. I’m glad you didn’t say anything or talk about it anymore. I just took that as my answer that you don’t feel the same way that I do, but I’m so delusional. And ur probably or 100% just being friendly with me and whatever but WHY Do we have to lock eyes the way we do, and how we smile at each other.. ugh or when I spent the night at ur house, the way you were looking at me made me fall so hard for you and made me nervous I had asked you why you were staring at me and you said “can I not look at you” kinda smiling. Ahhh I just wanted to wife you up in that moment but after I left ur house after all we did my heart broke I was so sad, and we didn’t talk at all or much about anything we only talk sometimes other then when we hangout and we actually talk in person lots. Maybe it wasn’t that serious. Or to you it probably wasn’t, it was probably nothing at all, I wish I could look at that way. I wish I could tell you how I feel, not over texts though. I wanna tell you in person, I was about to last time we hung out which was like a month ago but I backed out cause we were hanging with my ex to, i just wanted to grab you and kiss you, but I was wondering if you would kiss back. I mean last time you did 🤓I hope you know I don’t like my ex at all. We may be friends and hangout but that’s all that it is and will ever be When we first really hung out, we spent the next 3 days together. Time just flew by with you lol very eventful for sure and unforgettable We hang for hours but it never feels long enoughhh, I just want you all the time. I really enjoyed all the times we’ve saw each other. we see each other every once or twice a month, and I’m so glad we can still talk and laugh and the vibe never changes, it’s always interesting and I’m so happy you come and hang while I’m in thecity. Cause I do like live a few hours away🤓smh, idk when we’ll see each other again, the last time could be the last who knows but we do always end up seeing each other anyways somehow so who knows Did you manifest me, why am I this down bad I have never been this down bad for someone before 🥸 But I meannn how can I not be, ur YOU and I love you I haven’t met anyone else like you maybe it’s the fact you always showed you cared about me and helped me out and was there for me when something happened and made sure I was okay, and when I told you about when I got raped, idk why I told you. I wish I didn’t tell you I’m sorry I didn’t mean to dump it out on you like that but I was by myself, so alone, and I remembered that once when you said if I ever need someone to talk to about anything that’ll you’ll listen and be there for me. You probably don’t remember though, why do I remember so much little things about everything ah
idk if I ever said thank you for all of that. But I appreciate that talk and you so much, that was a very rough time in my life and I wasn’t well at all after that for a very long time, and I’m glad we got to talk but I’m sorry for dumping it all out on you like that.
When we first met I was a totally different person than how I am now. But I have grown and learned so much, i still have lots more growing to dooo and I have changed some of my ways and my “bad habits”. so much can happen in just a year and it’s crazy we only met in April, it feels like I’ve known you for so long. No lie, I’m sorry you had to meet me at that time in my life. I have liked you for so long lolll I had a crush on you after only “knowing” you for a month or two, idk why but I can’t get over youu, but I’m keeping it a secret for the time being and probably forever till I can actually get over you, but eventually I will get over you, someday. I stopped hoping and thinking I have a chance with you and that’ll we’ll ever be together, i just wish you the best, and hope you achieve all ur dreams and goals that you have. I know you can do it! Ur an amazing man, so caring and generous you help out everyone you know that needs it if you can. I noticed that about youu, you deserve the world.
But I wonder how you are, I hope ur okay. If you ever needed to talk about anything or need someone to talk to about anything, I’m always here, I’ll try to comfort and be there for you no matter what and show you support I mean I’m a very understanding person and I have been through alot of stuff. I like to help peopleee, You’ve said I could talk to you if I needed someone, I hope you know you can talk to me aswell when you need someone. Idk if I’ve ever said that I’m so dumb sorry I worry to much I remember we use to talk abit before and tell each other stuff and about what’s going on in our lives at times but we don’t anymore or you don’t talk to me, It’s like we’re drifting away, but it’s okay maybe we need to be apart
no one else has ever looked out for me the way you have. Or has done any of the things you’ve done for me. No one ever will, ur probably the first person In my life to care about me the way that you do, that’s it, sorry I’m like this I didn’t get no love as a child LOL jk but I’m just realizing now it was probably only in a caring friend way and nothing more But that’s okay, I miss When we would regularly text and sometimes text each other for hours about anything and everything. But you know how it always ended
Welp you already met my mom and my dad were practically snags now jk thanks for helping my dad out. He finally got back on his feet. can we please raise a dog and name it shumgus and have many weed plants/ grow shrooms together
I always see funny memes that remind me of you and I just know you’ll find them funny to. Do we have any inside jokes? I think soooo, I like making you laugh when we’re together 😭jk I also like how every once in awhile you send me funny random snap videos of stuff and ur cool interesting hobbies that you have 😂
😭😭 Also ur Pokémon cards and funko pops are a panty dropper
-love keke I had A lot on my mind and I can’t talk to him and those ice bowls definitely got to me ah

I have a female friend (20 yrs) who doesn't like sharing her problems and I respect this and try my best to be her friend. I have tried to encourage her to try and open up so I can be of at least little help but she still refuses to ask for help which is fine by me because she is her own person and I respect her . I try oftenly to lighten her mood and cheer her up but when I do she gets mad at me and says I overlook her problems and I often wonder if it's bad to try and cheer her up . Also she gets mad at me when I refuse to do her favors which occurs rarely because I like helping her out.When I ask her for a favor she refuses most of the time and when she is sad expects you to be sad when you are not she says you don't care about her.

March has been an extra curse for me. Every year, something always goes wrong; maybe it's because it's my birth month but it's so hard to feel good about this month. I thought maybe March won't be so bad because I was coming home from a really nice and relaxing trip-- just to end up getting into a car accident! on my birthday.. Luckily my friend wasn't hurt, but it sucked.
Next, I accidently got sad because my close friends didn't say a simple "happy bday", and silly enough, I remember them putting it in their calendar so they don't forget, which they didn't forget until this year. I mean I'm not that hurt about it, you just kind of have this slight disappointed feeling but everyone's busy so it's alright.
Another instance, this one hurt a lot. After a week from my birthday, this guy I was talking to for over two months, suddenly blocked me. Like no message, no nothing. We were just interacting the night before too, and when I went to text him.. his account was gone and I realized I was blocked by him. It hurts but that's life for me. I saw it coming to be honest, maybe that's why it happened. Like I knew it was going to happen because there were signs, and I stupidly ignored them too. I was in bliss, but just for that moment I guess. It was disappointing, I also hoped to be friends with him because I knew liking him was a no-go. It made me realize, the universe sure doesn't want me to have love, friendship, and even lust.
Lastly was about my friends, i dont have many but im starting to want to delete my social media and not talk to any of them, if they decide to text me back. They often keep me on delivered for months after a full hour of texting me. And it's exhausting. I realize that they only talk to me or want to video call with me when they are lonely or when their close friends are busy. It's like I'm the last option when it comes to interacting with me. My one friend and I would always video call on Wednesday for 3 hours, while he waits for class to start. Lately he doesn't even talk to me anymore or asks to video call. So I'm guessing he found friends. Not saying it's bad or anything! I'm happy if he did found people to accompany him. But it kind of sucks that they just don't bat an eye to you. I usually even free time for him, but that doesn't really matter or that important of an info.
tldr; car accident on bday, boy I like blocked me all of a sudden, and friendship problems. I feel like universe doesn't want me to have anything

This is a story of redemption. I saved up enough Bill Gates bucks from Microsoft rewards to get some gold at Christmas. The reduced 10x big santa crate bundle seemed tempting because of all the usual lowly drop rates of 0.01%, these 5% odds were generous for WG. I hate crates but the bit inside of us all that wants the endorphin rush of rolling the dice and getting double 6s, rose up and took charge. I got 9x crap and a Strasbourg. This for a guy that has played 2k games and 1900 of those were in dds and cruisers. The expected typical RNG had come to fruition: crap and I was sad.
Since then I decided to give bbs another chance. I ground the Richelieu and had massive fun in the Lyon on the way. Now I got a friend into the game and he's been grinding so I have been jumping into tiers below 7. Yesterday I decided to take the Strasbourg out and see what she can do for a bunch of games.
Oh my word this ship is cool. My second game was confederate/high calibre. It says its "weakness" is low calibre guns but the AP doesn't seem to care. It just does damage. Its fast AF and turns well. The MBRB means you can melt a spotted dd or surprise punish a broadside bb. The bow might not be great vs tier 7 bbs but I bounced a lot off the sides especially if you wiggle and angle, and you definitely can.
I just wanted to share how much better this ship seems to perform than its stats suggest. I think its a real sleeper with how well it can get around the battlefield and how well the guns perform. They're pretty accurate and seem to have virtually no vertical dispersion.
Thank you for coming to my presentation on a happy ending story about a really cool tier 6 BB.

Specifically where rid the name of "Youngbloods" for the community come from? I've seen some people say we're called Youngbloods as a community name, some have other names but I can't remember them off the top of my head.
Second, where did the "Thanks Pete" joke come from? I'm not sure if it's a common joke, but I've seen some people say it in comments and I've seen Patrick say it. I'm not exactly active in the community and I'm fairly new, only having been in it for the past 3 years or so, so I'm sadly not entirely familiar with any of the inside jokes or references >_>
Thanks!

Hey y'all, I gotta say, it suuuper bums me out, but I'm sellin' my awesome compact 6kG2 / Kondor Blue rig. Don't get me wrong, I love the camera and have zero complaints about it, but sadly my wallet can't handle it anymore and I need a cheaper option. So if you or anyone you know is lookin' for an awesome setup at a legit price, check it out on eBay! I'm totally open to some haggling so hit me up. Everything comes with matching cables and original boxes, and it all works like a dream. Really really sucks to say goodbye, but she deserves a new lovin' home.

Background story: My ex dumped me at early January 2023, due to constant arguments over minor issues for the past few days. She left me blindsided by saying “you get on my nerves sometimes but I love you” that morning and dumped me like a bag of trash that night. The next day I begged her to stay and we can tackle our issues together, but she refused, saying that being together will only limit our growth. She also said that she simply doesn’t want a romantic relationship in short. And she got herself a rebound just 10 days post breakup. It was at that moment that I decided to go into NC with this girl who I once saw a future with.
That left me so devastated, I could barely eat, have to curl myself into a ball just to sleep, and every single day waking up I felt worthless. I was diagnosed with moderate depression. But I know that I cannot stay in this state forever, have to move on and I have my finals to write in a month. Post breakup, I’ve been going to the gym 5 days a week, studied 4-10 hours daily, and reconnected with some friends that I did not contact much during the relationship.
Fast forward to present day, I’ve got a better physique, got a nice grade for the finals, no longer depressed, went on a few dates and my friends said that I’ve changed in a good way. And just yesterday I got to know that my ex failed that exam. (We study the same program) At first I laughed for a while, knowing that I’ve “won” the breakup, but just after a moment or two, I ask myself, so what?
She was someone who I deeply loved, we had a lot in common, we vibed together, and I enjoyed the friendship dynamic that we had when we were together a lot. Seeing that I’m doing better than her right now did not give me any sort of ego boost, instead I got the thought of “it shouldn’t turn out like this”. It simply aches my heart when I think of the idea of if we didn’t had the break up, I could have helped her out. Or if she didn’t get into the rebound and focused on working on herself instead, and the outcome might be different. I realised that I just wish her all the best and want her to be the best version of herself. Sadly I cannot, and am in no position to be by her side and help her out now.
TLDR: my ex dumped me and went into a rebound around 2.5 months ago, seeing that I am doing better than her rn did not make me any happier.
Moral of the story: there is no winner in a breakup.