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So I’ll start off by saying this: I have no clue what is true. I sincerely hope my cousin is lying, or having some type of complete mental health break/start of something like schizophrenia, because that would mean that the abuse hasn’t actually happened. (Also I do have severe mental health issues myself, I am not wishing that on her, just that the abuse hasn’t happened— mental health issues are treatable)
Earlier tonight I learned my cousin (25/f) has accused her step father of sexually abusing her, and also her husband of physically abusing her and their 3 daughters and locking her in their basement. For background: I am 27, and me and my cousin were extremely close growing up. I considered her my absolute best friend from as little as I can remember until probably 14-16, maybe even up to 18- it’s hard to remember. We lived one town apart and were able to see each other pretty often. When I was 18, I moved away to college and her, her mom, step dad and 2 brothers (technically 1/2 brothers) also moved- but from Texas to Idaho. Unfortunately we stopped being as close at that point. We both are very headstrong, and like things our own way, and because of this we’d always butt heads. Usually after several days together, it was time for a break. Now, my cousin has some ideas that most of my family see as ‘different’ or flat out incorrect, I usually can see her point and might now agree or sometimes I think she approaches it wrong. After years of arguments and huge fights, plus issues of mine that she (rightly) doesn’t like, we barely are able to talk more than a conversation or two every few months. However, as of right now, I cannot think of a single time she’s made up a huge lie. She’s incredibly dramatic, but she doesn’t just flat out lie about things like that. As far as her step dad… I knew she thought she had a repressed memory about something happening, she said she was going to talk to a therapist about the whole thing last time we talked. Personally, I’ve never liked him. I’ve always felt uncomfortable around him, not really in a ‘being sexualized’ way (which, as a former stripper, I am very familiar with that feeling), but just generally uncomfortable. I don’t like to be around him, even when he’s acting more ‘normal’. My grandmother has described him as weird or different. My gma has never taken the role of monster-in-law either, everyone has plenty of chances with her, she only expects her kids, and grandkids, to be treated correctly by their significant other. Actually, growing up I finally had the idea one day to ask my friends which of my parents they thought was her child- they all answered my mom, which is wrong. She really does treat everyone like her own though. So when my uncle wouldn’t attempt to have simple conversations/interactions at small, informal family gatherings (which used to happen 1x every 1-2 weeks), it was just dismissed as he’s just a little weird, nbd. The only specific thing I’ve thought about with him is that when I was younger and at their house playing outside with my cousin, I remember him having my aunt take her boobs out… she had just gotten a boob job, and we were all young, but even then it just struck me as “there is something wrong with this.”
As for her husband, I don’t know him well. He’s always seemed like the good husband, doting father. But no one knows what happens behind closed doors. My first reaction was “there’s no way,” however, I watch ID (true crime channel) almost anytime I have tv on… and just last night there was yet another show and the abuser had the abused entire family fooled.
Are there any tell tale signs to watch fotry to think back to that would point to either an issue or my cousin lying? I’ve already pretty much decided my cousin needs help, no matter what. Pretty much all the help I can offer is to be there for her, which I plan on, but any specific advice? I’m probably going to talk to my grandmother about it all tomorrow, so I might know more about it all, they talk daily or at least were for a while.
Also, yes I know I need to talk to her about it, but I have to be completely prepared or it will just go left and cause an issue between me and her.

Hello, so I’d like to get on bupe, but I’ve had no luck with two psychiatrists. Because of that (and because my money is more than finite lol) I’d like to make sure I can maximise my chances of getting it.
I’ve been sober for two weeks from a daily 300 mg oxy habit. But I’m not sure I understand the whole concept.
I know you don’t take bupe while you’ve still got opiate metabolites in your system because it will put you right into PAWS. But I’m not sure if I should show up to the appointment the way I am right now, you probably wouldnt know I’m in wd right now unless you knew I’m an addict.
Im sweating a bunch, rls, DMT pupils and still the runs sometimes. The worse part is the mental one for sure at this point. But this new psychiatrist told me last time that he couldn’t scribe it because I’ve been sober for two weeks.
Im not even trying to get this to get high. I genuinely want to feel normal again. Im not feeling so bad at the minute but that’s because I make myself happy by imagining taking more opiates or reminiscing about the times I was doing them a lot.
So at two weeks sober and let’s say only mental withdrawals (not 100% but the psych would take it as such anyway probably) do I stand a chance at getting bupe? Or is it mostly used for people who struggle to even keep sobriety for more than a week or a couple days?
I’m not the strongest individual and I’ve given up at a couple days before too. But with some resilience (or house arrest lol) I can keep my sobriety for at least a month.
Well, sobriety isnt exactly right. True, I’m not doing opiates but I’m doing anything else I can get my hands on. Should I mention this too?
I know I keep asking about virtually the same stuff constantly but I really have high hopes about this helping me feel like a semi normal citizen without either being in withdrawal or zonked out of my mind and just slumped without a thought in my head

My 20F Girlfriend and me 21M have a dispute about seeing past men she has slept with that are “friends of hers” before she met me? What can I say or Should I leave the relationship?
Question about a situation?
I am dealing with a situation that involves my girlfriend 20(F)and me 21(M) she thinks I’m in the wrong, and need help? We started seriously in November of last year, and this February a guy she had been fucking before me who she texted while we were serious in our relationship she ended up fucking a day after we broke up, and hung with him the previous night before she broke up wit but she says she fuvk fled him the next night; One day after we broke up, n then we got back together a couple days later.
Next is a situation that happened tonight, all I’ve asked is that she not hangout with the past guys she used to have a thing with and fucked. She claims some of them are her real good friends yet I’ve never heard of some of them and she hungout with one guy once and got tacos. Well a dude she had a thing for and previously was fucking came over tonight and she told me after. She had been texting him for two days and said that he was in the area and was never in town, when he works here and lives near her house. She claims that she assumed I’d be okay with it and that she has told me about him, when I have no idea about him or what he even looks like. I’m now upset and she expects me to believe that she knew that there would be no issues and that she had no doubt or question in her mind if she should check with me before or tell me that they were texting recently. She expects me to believe after I’ve told her I don’t want her to see dudes she fucked in the past at 11 at night alone in her room. What do I do? What should I tell her or should I leave the relationship? I’ve already told her I don’t want her doing it and she keeps doing it

I see. Here's another potential outline for a South Park episode, taking the internet rumors of a vibrating device in Hans Niemann's rectum as inspiration:
Title: "Cheaters Gonna Vibrate"
Synopsis: South Park is hosting a celebrity chess tournament, and everyone from Kanye West to Kim Kardashian is in town to compete. The tournament is being held online, and the celebrities are all playing from their luxurious homes.
Meanwhile, the South Park Elementary School chess club is preparing for a big tournament of their own. But when they start to hear rumors about a young prodigy named Hans Niemann, who's been accused of cheating in online tournaments, they start to worry.
The rumors say that Hans is using a vibrating device in his rectum to receive signals from a chess engine. The kids are grossed out and fascinated in equal measure, and they decide to investigate.
Using some high-tech spy gear, the South Park kids break into Hans's house and discover that the rumors are true - he's been using a vibrating butt plug to cheat at chess. The kids are disgusted, but also a little jealous of Hans's innovative cheating technique.
At the same time, the celebrity tournament is heating up, and the South Park kids start to suspect that some of the famous players are also cheating. They hatch a plan to expose the cheaters, using Hans's vibrating device as a way to detect any suspicious activity.
In the end, the tournament is thrown into chaos as the cheating celebrities are exposed one by one. The South Park kids emerge as the unlikely heroes, having saved the integrity of the game (and their own school's honor).
The episode ends with a cautionary message about the dangers of cheating, and a winking acknowledgement that sometimes, even the most outrageous rumors can have a kernel of truth.

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I just finished pinning to my "O" boards here: https://www.pinterest.com/lhowrish/ - Laine
I chose her Sometimes board: https://www.pinterest.com/lhowrish/s-o-m-e-t-i-m-e-s/
It's a lovely board with pins with quotes about 'sometimes' as well as 'sometimes' moments. Especially that sometimes a flower blooms, sometimes you fall in love, and sometimes there is beauty to be found amid the chaos.
SumX. Sum M. ER. Though when I hear the word "Sometimes" I think of that New Wave song "Sometimes" by DM and Britney Spears' song "Sometimes." I'm aesthetically trained in music, in what I hear. That's why there are q-tips all over the house. I'm always cleaning out my ears because hearing is my sense. There are 5 "known" senses, and the Fab 5 cover all 5. I'm hearing, Allison is sight, Danielle is Smell (Smell it Nell), Stef is Taste, and Ange is feel. Something like that. There are about actually 11 to 13 senses, unbeknownst to many, and something I must consider. I like that Michelangelo quote of him at 80 yo. - "I'm still learning."
"Sometimes I count the stars in my Mother's skies and weep for the lavender fields. Sometimes I'm with my Lola as she sits on a Rattan Rocking chair and sit at her feet while I silently caress the echoes of my youth. And sometimes, just sometimes, I'm kissing you."
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Morning all,
I'm hoping you could help an issue I'm having in relationships to my deposit. Based in England.
I moved in to a house share circa 2020, no inventory was signed/presented. Upon move in, the room was left in a mess, rubbish under the bed, carpets not hovered, dust everywhere.
My TIFU is not taking pictures at the time. However I cleaned the room, and moved on.
Upon my move out in Feb of this year, I cleaned the room, and left it in a much nicer state than I had found it. Again, I should have documented this.
My agent/landlord is now claiming ~£50 for cleaning, and have raised this with the DPS. I have recieved the rest of my deposit back.
I have counter claimed with the DPS, and my landlord has 14 days to reply. The 14 days is nearly up and no response yet.
What happens if they don't? The help page on the DPS only states that if tenants don't respond, a landlord can raise a statutory declaration. Would I need to do this as a tenant?
I'm a little confused as AFAIK the burdon of proof lies on the landlord who is making the claim, which they haven't provided any.
Thank you all in advance

I'm looking for a solution like the firestick where results from several streaming services and OTA channels can be combined in a single channel guide. Specifically I want: - 5-6 cable channels - OTA channels from my antenna. ( currently AirTV 2 but would buy TV if it worked ). - Pluto TV
Unfortunately since both Sling and Firestick are both "usually works" products combining them is about to get me thrown out of the house ...
Google TV claims to support this: https://www.sling.com/whatson/announcements/sling-tv-google-chromecast
https://support.google.com/googletv/answe11167990?hl=en
But when I try this on a ccwgtv 4k all I see after linking my accounts is a "sling" category with a single entry that says "Open Sling TV" and "Unable to load channels at this time"
Similar problem with "Live Channels" app. It launches sling but then fails with "feature not available." just like it does on android TV ( blue and white sling TV player ).
Is this currently working for anyone or even better do you know how to fix it ?

So I had a really weird dream about a huge house full of people I know, my family etc and it wasn't so significant overall but there was one part that was just so... weird. I was walking through the house and there were a bunch of hallways and bathrooms that some kids trashed earlier in the dream. Now there was no one except one of my high school friends sitting in one corner alone. When I got to him, I asked him smth like where did he come from, I'm so happy to see him etcetc and he was stone cold and told me that he changed his name and now he's called "die forest" and also told me that I'm late and we decided to meet at 5 but now it's past 5 and I was confused because I didn't remember even coming in contact with him, let alone arranging to meet him at 5.
Now for some back story, he was really dear to me in high school and we used to talk a lot and we're quite similar. He was extremely introverted and didn't talk much, which I am as well but not to that extreme, so I was one of the few people he actually talked to. He was also kinda bullied by our classmates and I that was one of the reasons I was always kinda worried about him. When we texted one time after high school, he seemed sooo awfully depressed but we never talked again because he didn't want to talk so I respected that and gave him space. I didn't think or talk about him prior to this dream at all, I totally forgot about him so this couldn't be just because I heard about him so I had a dream, I think it really means something. Esp since I dreamt about him only like twice overall and it was always something weird and smth to be worried about and I couldn't stop thinking about those dreams for so long

Went to see it last night, a very different movie to X, but loved it. The whole Technicolor vibe worked so well, & Mia Goth's performance was stunning. I think the backstory really makes X a much richer movie too. Super stoked for MaXXXine now, but knowing A24's UK release schedule I'll expect it some time in 2035 😅
Are any other Ti West movies worth checking out, beyond House of the Devil and The Innkeepers? They're the only others I've seen.

Hi! I'm looking for more RPs, Specifically I've lately been craving FNAF, I do know other fandoms that we can discuss of course too.
Rules- No Overpowering Characters, it's annoying, however in this fnadom I don't think I have to worry about that.
My main OC is Aroace, Meaning no smut with her, If you want that I can create another OC or use a different cannon character but I don't want the plot to be purely smut based.
Tell me your triggers beforehand! Angst is my favorite genre, I do a lot of that but I need to know your triggers.
Genres- Comedy, Drama, Angst, Action, Adventure, Slice Of Life
Ideas- I have a few, if you have your own please let me know and we can either combine them or create a way to do two plots at once.
Fnaf 1/2-
Paranormal investigation-
Either one character or both characters [Depending on if this is a double OC thing or if one OC is a security guard or something else] come to the location to investigate the claims of paranormal activity in the locations. They spend nights there uncovering what happened to the kids and trying to track down Afton.
Runaways- [Can also be used for Security Breach]
This is more of an AU where the buildings were left abandoned, the fire had failed to burn everything down and instead the place stood empty. The animatronics roamed free, Talked ect A young character one night came there as a form of shelter, the animatronics try scaring them off but the character just wasn't getting the hint and thinking it was all classic malfunctions. What do they do now? They figure out why the person is even there in the first place, since it's notoriously dangerous. They soon learn of the situation and figure out what to do from there on.
FNAF 4-
Trapped-
This is more of an AU where the animatronics weren't a figment of nightmares, they were real spirits manifested In the home. After the afton family moves out and a new one moves in, they don't know what to do. So they tried continuing the same routine as before, however it was pointless given that it wasn't the same family, this new child/children didn't understand why they were there. However they were Trapped in the house.
DM me if interested, of course again, we can talk about new plots or changing up some plots a bit.

Hi, so, hardware and BIOS stuff are outside my wheel-house for the most part so bare with me.
About a month ago I've been consistantly getting CPU Fan error when starting up my PC. My case has one CHA fan which controls a fan at the back and 3 fans at the front of the case and then the CPU fan which is a big chunky boy connected to the motherboard.
Sometimes if I leave the PC in the bios for long enough the CPU fan will start up on its own (but very rarely) and usually I have to turn off, unplug, unplug the 4 pin fan from the motherboard, plug it back in, turn it on and it'll immediately start with the PC starting no problem and will continue to be on as it should until I turn it off.
As far as I know everything is getting enough voltage and there's nothing physically wrong with the fan. I could set the BIOS to ignore CPU fan monitoring but theres no guarentee it would actually turn on if I did that- it'd just bypass the CPU error. I also have a uh, AIO Pump pin on the motherboard I could switch the fan to but I'm not sure what issues that could cause.
Any input (please dumb it down) would be really great. Here are the specs (some might be irrelevent)
Intel Core i7-7700K 4.2GHz (Kaby Lake) Socket LGA1151 Processor
Asus Prime Z270-K Intel Z270 (Socket 1151) DDR4 ATX Motherboard
32GB RAM
Geforce 3080 10GB
PSU is 1.2 volts and is using 1.1 (you might have to decphier that I'm going off memory)
Tysm, happy to answer anything to the best of my abilities.

This is really hard for me.
I have insomnia for 8 years since I was in college. Because of that, I can't sleep at night or have a at least normal 8 hour sleep unless I tire myself out for 2 or 3 days. Even if try to sleep everyday, I can only sleep 2 hours at most and I'll just automatically wake up again. It gives me headaches to sleep such short time just to wake up abruptly. Since it's been so long, I've learnt to just live with it.
Here's some background. I've been travelling and working as a guide until 2020. It was fun until I had to quit because of covid. For the past 2 1/2 years, I've been working as a freelancer and a small business here and there to feed myself. But, everyone knows that I can't last long with the small income and the increasingly economic issues. Rent and groceries became expensive and I can barely have a decent meal everyday. Not to mention the bills.
I decided to look for jobs with better opportunities and salary. I hate it at first because I'm quite big and normal office job gave caused me to have slip disk due to the long period of sitting in front of the laptop. But it's making me pity myself that I don't go out of the house to shop and bought everything from the dollar store.
After months of applying everywhere, I finally got accepted to one of the company thanks to my friend's recommendation. The salary is decent and as I heard the work is not demanding. 2 days off and a normal office working hours. I'm very thankful.
However, here's the problem. Due to my insomnia, I can't function properly after 2 or 3 days and this work needs to use more brain than physical work. I've always known that normal working hours doesn't fit me but beggars can't be choosers.
Sorry for the long rant but I really need help on how to keep my insomnia at bay for me to do my job decently and also have at least one healthy routine/diet to help me go through this. The work is from 10am to 7pm which I think is great! It'll be hard for me but I'm willing to put in the effort to help myself at least get a little better.
Please help me, dear reddit readers.

Hi, so, hardware and BIOS stuff are outside my wheel-house for the most part so bare with me.
About a month ago I've been consistantly getting CPU Fan error when starting up my PC. My case has one CHA fan which controls a fan at the back and 3 fans at the front of the case and then the CPU fan which is a big chunky boy connected to the motherboard.
Sometimes if I leave the PC in the bios for long enough the CPU fan will start up on its own (but very rarely) and usually I have to turn off, unplug, unplug the 4 pin fan from the motherboard, plug it back in, turn it on and it'll immediately start with the PC starting no problem and will continue to be on as it should until I turn it off.
As far as I know everything is getting enough voltage and there's nothing physically wrong with the fan. I could set the BIOS to ignore CPU fan monitoring but theres no guarentee it would actually turn on if I did that- it'd just bypass the CPU error. I also have a uh, AIO Pump pin on the motherboard I could switch the fan to but I'm not sure what issues that could cause.
Any input (please dumb it down) would be really great. Here are the specs (some might be irrelevent)
Intel Core i7-7700K 4.2GHz (Kaby Lake) Socket LGA1151 Processor
Asus Prime Z270-K Intel Z270 (Socket 1151) DDR4 ATX Motherboard
32GB RAM
Geforce 3080 10GB
PSU is 1.2 volts and is using 1.1 (you might have to decphier that I'm going off memory)
Tysm, happy to answer anything to the best of my abilities.

First a bit of context… As a child I was a victim of sexual abuse. I’ve spent most of my adulthood in therapy working through various symptoms of CPTSD, but I still have a very strong instinct to protect children and am always slightly on guard—especially now I am a mother myself.
All of us have been friends for a long time. But this new boyfriend (the one in question) has only recently come into the picture. And he’s pretty intense. After only 3 months of dating he is already talking about retirement plans and future house-buying plans. Which is kinda weird, I thought. He’s also really, really into kids. Loves hanging out with them and told me that for a long time all he wanted to do was become a kindergarten teacher.
None of this sparked my concerns so much, but the first and only time I met him, we were all out to lunch and I spotted a “look” from him that was directed towards a little girl, maybe 4years old and my spidey senses went crazy. I very very very rarely get these “feelings” about people… I’ve had it maybe 3 times before in my lifetime, but this time my instincts were definitely telling me to be on guard with him, after all I have a toddler.
I know what you’re thinking, I can’t judge a guy based on a “look” right? Well, this all happened before my friend (who is dating the guy) later revealed that his twin sister will not leave her children alone with him…. GIANT red flag, I thought.
So my instincts are telling me to be on guard, and then I hear this new information… but I keep it all to myself knowing it very well might be absolutely nothing. But then friend number 3 comes into the picture, who has twin toddlers. We are all planning a trip away together and she jokingly sends a text to our group saying on the first night away she plans on leaving her kids with the boyfriend in question (given he is a teetotaler) while us girls go out for a catch-up drink.
This is when I feel a strong compulsion to step in and make sure (just in case there’s any truth to her suggestion of leaving her kids with him) that she knows how I feel and to be a bit wary… she has never met him btw.
Am I the buttface for potentially poisoning friend 2’s opinion of a man she’s never met in an effort to protect her children from potential harm?
TLDR: friend 1 is newly dating a guy I suspect might be a paedophile. Friend 2 has twin toddlers and jokingly suggested she leave them with him, as he doesn’t drink while we all go out for a catch-up drink. I call friend 2 to warn her I think he might be suspect and to not leave her kids alone with him whilst also admitting that my history of sexual abuse might have made me overly paranoid…

So I'm trying my best to avoid info dump and have read blogs and blogs about it. I just need help identifying if what I wrote is an info dump, if it's not then that means I'm going in the right direction, if it is an info dump then off to the chalkboard again.
Here it is:
Roman's room was lined with papers that had runes drawn on them. He was into them. He poured plenty of his time into learning about runes. Since runes could be powered with outer mana it was the one magic thing he could accomplish, except it wasn't really magic by definition, or maybe it was when it came to utility spells. Anyway, the point was, Roman was a nerd and a huge nerd at that. Most nerds stereotypically didn't have a social life and that was exactly what Roman was like. His parents once brought him to their friend's house to play with their friend's daughter but nothing clicked. It wasn't like that Roman didn't play with her, it was more like she didn't want to play with him.
He had an aura about him that mystified even his parents. He was quiet and reserved but when it came to the really meaty parts of the thing that interested him, he launched in an insipid display of knowledge and wit. Being not magic didn't ever bog down his interest in magic, much as if he were destined for magic all along. But he wasn't destined, he knew that. There was one time when he tried to turn a frog into a giant by way of ritual. He argued that ritual spells could probably work if he tried it with outer mana. So he went and drew a huge rune to conduct his ritual and eventually ended up with a large crater as the rune exploded. Thankfully he was unharmed. Rituals weren't for runes, he thought.

Hello friends,
end of week me and my girlfriend are planning to visit Dubai for a week.
This trip was planned just yesterday hence we are a bit in stress because of stuff like VISA and everything, therefore I have a few questions.
Can I change € notes to VAE? notes in dubai without being scammed by fees?
In case notes aren‘t common in Dubai, is one prepaid mastercard enough for two persons?
We thought of booking an Airbnb so we can cook by ourself, the airbnb would be located near „The palm“ in Dubai Marina. Is there anything bad that can happen with renting an airbnb rather than a hotel? We don‘t want to get scammed at all.
What about a prepaid sim card and mobile data plans? Our local carrier won‘t support dubai, but as we need data, I thought of buying an prepaid sim card and put it in my travel router which is able to 4G. Can I buy them at the airport? Also what are the prices?
What about a Visa? We are both german residents with a german passport
Thank you for your help!

Destination Covered New Delhi – Agra – Jaipur – Goa

TOUR ITINERARY DETAILS

Day 01: Arrive New Delhi

On arrival Incredible Tour To India representative shall meet you at the airport to welcome you and transfer you to hotel. Overnight at the hotel.

Day 02: Delhi

Enjoy full day city tour covering Laxmi Narayan Temple – The Place of Gods, India Gate – The memorial of martyrs, Parliament House – The Government Headquarters, Jama Masjid – The largest mosque in Asia, Red Fort – The red stone magic, Gandhi memorial – The memoir of father of the nation beside these some other places to visit are – Qutub Minar Complex and Humayun’s Tomb. Overnight at the hotel.

Day 03: Delhi to Agra

Today we shall drive you to Agra. Agra is 205 kilometers away from Delhi and take 5 hours drive to reach. Arrive in Agra and check in into hotel. Later, we shall take you for a city tour covering -Taj Mahal – a poem written in white marble, the most extravagant monument ever built for love, Red Fort – a visit to the fort in ‘Agra’ is a must since so many of the events which lead to the construction of the Taj took place here, Itmad-ud-Daula’s Tomb – The tomb is of particular interest since many of its design elephants overshadow the Taj. Overnight at the hotel.

Day 04: Agra to Jaipur

Early morning, drive to Jaipur. The city is 235 kilometers away from Agra and take 5 hours drive to reach. En route visit Fatehpur Sikri (Old Deserted town of Mughal Dynasty) and its monuments which include Jama Masjid, The Buland Darwaza, Palace of Jodha Bai, Birbal Bhawan & Panch Mahal. Arrive in Jaipur and check into the hotel. Later relax in the hotel. Overnight at the hotel.

Day 05: Jaipur

Today morning we shall take you for a tour to Amer Fort. Take joy ride on Elephant (presently Elephant Ride closed at Amber Fort for the time being). Afternoon enjoy city tour covering City Palace – occupies a large area divided into a series of courtyards, gardens & buildings and a perfect blend of Rajasthani & Mughal architecture, Royal Observatory – An observatory with some rare qualities to its credit, Nawab Sahab Ki Haveli, and the Bazaar etc. Overnight at the hotel.

Day 06: Jaipur to Goa

In the morning, you’ll be transferred to airport to board connecting flight for Goa. On arrival in Goa met our representative and get transferred to your Hotel. Rest of the day is at leisure. Overnight at the hotel.

Day 07: Goa

In the morning, enjoy half day sightseeing tour of Old Goa. Evening is at leisure. Overnight at the hotel.

Day 08: Goa

Full day relax by the poolside/Beach. Overnight stay.

Day 09: Goa Departure

Morning is at leisure. In the evening, you’ll be transferred to the airport to board connecting flight for your onward destination.

I am 19. I suffer from a laundry list of mental illness. You name it, I probably have it. Panic Disorder, Social Anxiety, ADHD, PTSD, severe depression, suicidal thoughts, the list goes on. I've had these things for a long time, but since the pandemic and since I began college, they've gotten a lot worse. I had to take a year off from school and I have spent months in my room.
I live with my mother. One of the conditions is that I pay rent. So I do. But to her, paying on time isn't enough. She says the conditions of staying in her house were that I'd go to school, work towards adulthood and all that. The last year I haven't been doing that. I've been severely depressed. I don't get out of bed most days. She is a psychologist, and she knows what's going on, so she has given me some grace. I've been thankful for that, but I know I've also gotten defensive when she brings up more stressful things like money. I pay rent on time. I take odd jobs and make money. That part of our deal has stayed intact, so I don't want to talk about it with her. When she brings it up, I shut her down. I already stress myself out about it, I don't need her stressing me out to.
It kind of reached a boiling point, I guess. She says I'm not doing enough, I'm being mean to her unintentionally, and I hate her finacee. (That part is true. I do hate her fiancee.) Anyway, we were talking about a lot of different things, a conversation she didn't give me notice for or give me time to emotionally prepare for, and I guess I kind of just snapped.
I told her I don't trust her, and that I haven't for a while. Most of my life it was just me and my mom, so we were pretty close when I was a kid, but I spent most of my childhood alone. She was a good mom when she was there, but I mostly raised myself. And when I was at my dad's, he beat me. Badly. I didn't tell her until it had been going on for years, but as I get older, I truly find myself wondering if she really didn't know.
My therapist suggested at one point that we spend a night together once a week just to make sure we had time for each other. So we did. For a few months. And then, pretty much without warning, she stopped. She said I talked too much. It was a monologue and not a conversation. I had told her before that she should cut me off if I got annoying, and she never did. But then one night, out of nowhere, she told me I talked too much. So I stopped talking. And then she decided I complained too much about her fiancee while we were out, so she stopped wanting to go out with me at all.
So I told her that was why I didn't talk to her anymore. And I really don't. But I don't really talk to anyone. Like I said, I've spent the last six months almost entirely in my room.
More recently, we were supposed to have one night together that was just for us. We'd bought tickets to a show before the pandemic started, and it was finally coming around again. I was excited to finally spend time with her after I hadn't really done so in months. It was just going to be us and I figured, hey I might not talk very much because it annoys her, but at least we'll have a good night like old times before the pandemic started.
She invited her fiancee.
I was distraught. I had to call my grandmother and ask her to go do something with me for a couple hours because I honestly couldn't handle the fact that my mother couldn't save this one night for us. This one night that had been planned before her and her finacee had even met.
I told her all of that tonight, and she seemed upset. But I also told her she played a role in worsening my depression because she did.
When the pandemic started, I got really really depressed. And since leaving the house wasn't really an option during lockdown, I spent most of my time on the couch. It was a cheap couch. But after a couple months of continuously sitting on it, it started to sag. We had to buy a new one. My mom told me straight to my face that it was my fault that it broke and that it was my fault we were taking the financial hit of having to get a new couch. And maybe it was true, but dude I was 17, severely depressed and in the middle of a global pandemic. I don't know what else you wanted me to do.
From that moment on, I started spending all my time in my room. At first I'd come downstairs for meals, and I'd leave for classes when I was allowed to go back to campus, and occasionally I'd hang out with friends when COVID started slowing down. But then the depression got worse. Spending so much time in my room, I didn't socialize very much. So I let myself get worse. And then I stopped going to classes. Stopped seeing my friends. Stopped coming out to eat. A year ago, I stopped taking my medication, and six months ago, I stopped coming out of my room at all.
I can't blame her for my actions. I can't blame her for the fact that I let myself get worse or that I went of my meds. But I can, and I do, blame her for putting the idea of staying in my room in my head. I was so upset about that damn couch that I wouldn't let myself ruin another one. My room was safer. And that I do blame her for.
She was obviously upset about all of that when I told her. She took responsibility for some of her actions, not all of them. And then she asked me where I saw myself in 5 years.
That's when I had to tell her the hardest part.
I don't know. Truly I do not know. For so long, I was genuinely convinced that I would not make it to adulthood that I now have no idea what to do with my life. The exact conversation was something like
"where do you see yourself in five years?"
"I don't know. I didn't think I'd make it this far. I thought my dad would kill me or I'd kill myself."
I don't think she truly knows how bad it was with my father, which is fair because she never saw it. She cried and told me she was glad I was still here. I said I wasn't because now I don't know what to do. I haven't really seen my mother cry much in my life. She cried when I said that.
She asked me why I hadn't asked her for help. I asked her why I would ask for help when I don't trust her. I asked why I should want to tell her anything when all of this was proof that I can't. She told me that if she says or does something that hurts me, I have to tell her. I will tell you the same thing I told her:
Why do I have to be responsible for you not hurting me?
And she had to sit with it for a second. I love my mother. I really love my mother. I owe her a lot. But I have kept all of this to myself for so long, and I couldn't do it anymore. I could not keep pretending like she'd done nothing wrong just because she is the lesser of two evils between my parents.
I feel bad, but every time she says something about how I'm not trying hard enough, I just want to scream at her, so today I finally laid it all out.
But that's all, I guess. I just needed to get it off my chest, and I didn't want to burden my friends with it.