CW: Violence
"The cows are very scared Father. Brunhild will not give milk and she tried to kick me when I came close. What has them so spooked? Where is little Polina?"
Timo came around the corner and the answer was clear. The back of the cowshed had been forced open, and on the ground lay the corpse of a calf. His father squatted by the dead creature, supporting himself on his long walking stick. Jürgen got up and turned to his son, now a young lad of 14. Almost a man, the boy worked hard but he had not yet been tested. He beckoned his son to get closer.
"I know this is a scary scene, but what do you see son? Look closely."
Throat ripped open and her body chewed and ripped apart, bloody pawprints. The blood had stiffened, so it was at least a day old.
"Bear? No, wolves, the prints are too small to be bear. I think there were 4? Why did they only get Polina?"
Jürgen sighed, and looked off into the treeline which led to the Bernese Alps.
"5 wolves, they got in yesterday by the looks. Polina was small and still a calf, an easy meal. But more than enough to fill the wolves. They probably have a den in the forest, Ill head to town later and see if any man will help me clear it out."
"We could do it father. You and I should be more than capable enough."
Jürgen smiled.
"All right, we head back home first. We will need some equipment."
It was still long before noon when they got back to their pasture. Fixing the hole in the shed the two set off into the forest. Jürgen had taken his old Reislaufer pike, shortened to a 2 meter spear, his sword and dagger. Timo had been given a shortbow, an Italian crossbow his father had taken home some years ago, as well as a sling and dagger. Apart from armaments they brought survival essentials for these mountains, rope, climbing spikes, fire making kit, and a snare to hunt small game as they made their way through the wilderness. Ahead of them lay one of the most imposing peaks of the Alpine Chain, the Wildhorn. It would be in its shadow that the father and son would find the hunters of their livestock.
The trek was easily navigable at first but soon the vegetation became thinner as it gave way to more harsh faces. Jürgen would not lose the track however, the wolves were much more agile than them, able to leap up the rocky faces with ease, they would need to ascend further to reach their den.
"Father, is there nothing easier for the wolves to hunt? Our cows are protected in the shed, could they not simply hunt deer?"
Jürgen turned to his son.
"The deer are all gone Timo, they have moved further north to the plateau, seeking warmer climates. These wolves have not moved, and while our cows are sheltered, they are easy to find and a rich feast. The mountains are harsh, but this is the territory of the wolves. We have placed a fat and lazy meal ripe for the picking."
"Fat and lazy like the Italians?"
Jürgen laughed.
"Yes son, and we are the wolves of these mountains."
He continued as he chuckled when he heard Timo stumble behind him. Quickly grabbing the boy he kept him from tumbling down a small rocky rise.
"Careful boy. This place will throw you down, break every bone in your body and leave you for the birds. This is not a Sunday stroll to church, this is a place not made for men to tread."
This scared Timo slightly, but there was something of a rush to being here. Challenging nature, fighting an insurmountable force. The mountains make you feel small, but to conquer something as unforgiving as the mountains was something that made his mind wander. He returned to the moment quickly however, the sun was beginning to set, the night would be upon them soon.
They set up camp under a rocky overhang, with a small campfire. Timo shot some Rock Partridges and plucked them to eat. Snow gently began to fall as the sky darkened, giving way to a clear starry sky. A half-moon made for a dark night.
"Son, you take the first watch. Wake me in a few hours."
"Watch? Why do we need to take watch?"
A howl rang through the night, coming from further up the mountain. Timo felt a chill go down his spine as he loaded the crossbow and his father began to drift to sleep. The light of the campfire reached a few meters out, illuminating some of the surrounding brush. He could hear movement in the darkness, eyes flashing in the dying light of the campfire. Adding more tinder to the fire keeping the light grew to a expose a few meters further into the night. A large grey shape suddenly ducked out of the light into the dark. He nudged his dad, rousing him from his sleep. Up in a start Jürgen grabbed his spear and stood in front of his son.
"How many?"
"At least 2, maybe more."
Grabbing a lit piece of wood from the fire Jürgen held it aloft. 2 wolves in front of him bared their teeth as they emerged from the darkness. One began to charge at him when a bolt drove into the beast's skull, killing it. Timo began to reload the crossbow. The other wolf now charged, and from behind them another, hidden in the dark. Before Jürgen could turn the wolf in front of him pounced and threw him to the ground. He put his forearm under the wolf's jaw to keep its jaws away as the other hand grabbed his dagger and began to furiously stab upwards. Another battle, another push, death inches closer. He heard his son scream as he felt the wolf go limp. Grabbing his spear he got to his feet to help his son. He saw the flash of steel as Timo grabbed his own dagger and drove it into the side of the wolf which stumbled off of him. The wolf was larger and a lighter shade of grey than the two wolves they had already killed. It barrelled into the darkness ahead. Timo's arm was covered in blood as his shoulder had been wounded by the wolf's attempt to get at his throat.
"Lay still, we need to stop the bleeding."
Applying pressure, Jürgen took out some cloth bandages and poured out some beer onto them. He had seen something like this on campaign, but never done it himself. He had seen men walk away from worse wounds than this though, as he felt the spot where his eye used to be itch. By daybreak the wound was bound and had stopped bleeding, but the pain was still fresh. During the night they had skinned the wolves. Jürgen got up.
"Time to go, the wolf den will not be far."
There was no resistance from Timo, he knew that there was no going back until the job was done. Loading the crossbow was immensly painful but it would be blissful compared to death by wolf. The two continued along the ridgeline, a 10 meter drop to their left, and a sheer rock face to their right. Looking down Timo saw drops of blood marking the path ahead, the wounded wolf. The blood getting fresher and fresher as they continued. Soon they reached a small cave on the mountainside.
"Be careful, there are at least 2 wolves in there, and one is injured. A cornered animal is unpredictable and will fight hard. You must be ready."
Steadying themselves they ducked into the den. It was not a deep den, and soon they saw one wolf wounded, bleeding from a gash in its ribs. By his side a she wolf who instantly got up and raised her hackles. Just like her partner she was larger and older. The male stumbled to his feet as his eyes went wild. As soon as the male moved, Timo took it out with the crossbow, a final whine as it died. The female charged forward as Jürgen dispatched it with his spear. They stood there in silence for a good while.
"You skin these two, I will wait outside. You did well son."
"It needed to be done. How would our cows ever had been safe with these monsters in the woods."
Jürgen stopped.
"What did you say? Monsters? These creatures had no ill intent. Do you not see? Mother and father, the two we killed last night were their pups. They have been in these mountains longer than us, this was their home long before any canton. Violence for survival is not an evil act, defending your home is not monstrous, and the dying in that fight is honourable."
Timo scoffed.
"And you are the wolf or the cow? The men you killed in war, was that done to defend our home? Are we evil?"
They began their trek home, Jürgen had no response. For hours they walked down the mountain, retracing their steps until they arrived back at the cow shed, reaching it by the end of the day. The cows mooed gently as the two removed their equipment. Grabbing two wooden cups Jürgen poured himself and Timo some beer.
"I understand that you would feel the way you feel. I went south too much and for too long. I missed years of your life. I was not there when your mother died, and I will never forgive myself for that. What I said is right, the defence of our homes is something that we will do till the death. This land is too precious to us to give up. But we took the land of others, I killed men for conquest and war. There is something monstrous about that. But I do not regret it, it was something I was very good at, and I had a duty to you as my family to provide for you as well as a duty to the canton when called upon. The laws that govern men and animals are different. The wolves kill to survive, I killed because I was paid to do so. Money that I spent on you and your sister. I know it does not excuse it, and I am sure that when I die, St. Peter will judge me for those actions. But I would spend eternity in damnation if I could ensure you and your sister do not live in squalor and poverty. I know this is not going to be the end of this discussion, but it is important to me that you understand why I left you for so long. I want to give you options, the way of the Reisläufer was all that was open to me, and one day you too might want to join their ranks. Or you learn a trade, make a good living, there is honour in that also. I pray you do not hate me, or resent me for what I did Timo. I love you with all my soul."
His father was never a tough man, treating him and his sister with love. He never doubted that his father loved him, but he could not imagine his father as a bloodstained warrior, not until today. A man is more than your perception of him. Jürgen was only a father to Timo, but today he saw that he was more than that. Father, soldier, herder, husband, Eidgenosse.

So it's a fact that, at that this point, I haven't played most of the Rune Factory games. Not because I don't want to, but because availability on modern gaming consoles is so limited that, at this point, the only ones I have been able to play are RF4S and RF5. Naturally I plan to get RF3S when it comes out in the US this September, but until the other games also get HD ports, I probably won't be playing any of them anytime soon. I mean I could also use an emulator, but this is one instance where I genuinely want the developers to get the money they deserve so that the series doesn't die again.
Anyway, since I can't play the other games, I have been doing my best to do research on them so that I'm not totally in the dark regarding the lore and characters; watching videos, looking up articles on the very crappy wiki, and talking with veteran fans who know the series better than I do. When I was looking into the stuff regarding Frontier, one character caught my attention in particular, one who the more I examined him, the more I found myself thinking "Hey, it would be neat if they brought this guy back for another title."
The main antagonist, Gelwein.
Yes, I know bringing him back would be difficult on account of the fact that he literally died at the end of the game, but hear me out for a second.
First of all, despite his characterization being nothing special (he's basically Ethelberd but a mad scientist), his motivations as a villain are interesting. He was a former researcher at Norad's Imperial Magic Research Center and although he wasn't particularly liked by his colleagues, he was kept around because he was so good at his job. However, he started doing research into how runes could be used for warfare and that is apparently a big no-no in Norad, so what ended up happening? First the monarchy defunded his research, and then the laboratory just straight up fired him. Gelwein, obviously, did not take it very well and his initial goal was to just get back at both his colleagues and the royal family for disgracing him. (Although his plans quickly escalated to total destruction of the world after he discovered that Mist was a far better tool in his plans than the Irises.)
Now, the above motivations become even tastier when you remember that, thanks to RF4 and RF5, we have now had two members of the royal family as marriage candidates. A game taking place around/after RF5 with Gelwein would be virtually impossible just because of how much time has passed since Frontier (unless he came back as a ghost or sth), but if the game happened to take place around the time of/shortly after RF4's events, it would be the perfect excuse to either A) bring Arthur back which would personally delight me since I am a shameless simp or B) have one of his many siblings featured as a character since Gelwein would likely take one look at them and immediately try to strangle them due to his personal vendetta.
Second: Gelwein's death scene was done so poorly. Seriously, the first time I watched it, I had no idea that he even died; I was just very confused as to why Raguna, Mist, and the cutscene itself seemed to have forgotten that he was even there. They don't even show him collapsing or disappearing into the void like Ethelberd does in RF4. He just makes a groaning noise and then the camera shifts focus to the monster he was fused with, after which he's just not in the scene anymore. Because of how badly they portrayed his "death," I could easily see the writers handwaving his demise and coming up with some silly excuse as to why he survived, which wouldn't be the first time something like that happened in a game. (I'm looking specifically at what happened with Shadow the Hedgehog.)
But, uh, yeah. I mean the chances of them bringing Gelwein back for another game are probably next to nothing, but if they did, I feel like it could make for an interesting plot, especially if they made his characterization more interesting. I'd also hope for the dub they'd bring his old VA back to voice him, if only because I can no longer imagine Frontier's credits without a certain voice over.
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Okay, the sequels better sure as hell make up for this, I'm telling you right now, because I'm stuck in Nowhereland.

Intro

Well…it’s official. After a ton of hours of watching and analyzing, 48 posts, linking many moments from YouTube, 2764 individual rankings determined, various calculations, and (most importantly) countless walls of text expressing my opinions…I AM FINALLY DONE WITH THIS SERIES!🥳 And it only took a bit more than a year and 7 months since my very first post regarding this🤪. Though with that being said, I would like to wrap this all up with one nice long final wall of text. It’s worth noting, this is especially long and probably extremely wordy. So I put headers on this post so y’all can skip around. But just to start, I’d like to give a runthrough of my whole experience doing this
Note: Yes, I took various inspiration from u/twofacedflyer and his finale post during the super dope series he did…more than two years ago now (Jesus Christ time flies)

Tangent on this series

Now if you know me pretty well, you’ll likely know almost ever since I got into TD, I really developed this obsession with trying to rank stuff, especially TD characters. I even remember the first days of me trying to make my own tier list ranking every character and had Noah and Cody as my hindsight top 2 (and no, I didn’t ship Noco at the time). However, my opinions have changed a lot throughout, and while I still love both characters, they don’t appeal to me quite as much as before. At this point, I’ve pretty much updated my character tier lists almost countless times. In fact, it even got to a point where I milked the fuck out of tier list posts before. There was even a period of time where I would post an update to the sub every week or two, and chances are I might’ve posted even more frequently if it wasn’t for the tier list trend rule, LOL. And for whatever reason, even to this day, I tend to start getting obsessive and nitpicky about trying to order each character and pinpoint my feelings on them as accurately as possible. There’s a reason why even before I started this series, I had a very nuanced continuous number system to further showcase exactly where each character falls on each category of my ranking system. Though nonetheless, this leads me to the one day where something just sparked within me. Essentially, I was like “Huh, I wonder what my opinions on each TD character would be if I average my opinion on them out episode by episode?”. I figured it would definitely be easier if I laid all of this out on Google Sheets. I originally just planned to try to calculate each average for each character based on a not as specific number scale based on my rankings with them. But after a bit of time, I figured the one way to really make this accurate is by actually making the number scale far more continuous than discrete. And then overtime, I also ran into other factors
There’s no doubt a lot of this series was done very spontaneously. Afterall, it didn’t even start with TDI originally. I wanted to try this whole ranking chart for TDA, and I don’t think I even planned on writing a review about the season either. But as time went by, I just figured “Hey, if I’m rewatching these seasons and trying to make something where I have to look into each episode enough to pinpoint my thoughts on each character there, why not express a bunch of thoughts I have while rewatching?”. And alas, as well as my initial review and rankings for TDA, my rewatch commentary episode by episode was born. After rewatching TDA, I then went back to TDI since at the time, I thought TDA and TDI were the seasons I wanted to rewatch the most. And that’s where I started just writing out various thoughts I had and things I picked up on or saw with more clarity as I rewatched the episodes. Though even then, I didn’t go through each episode that thoroughly at the time. In fact, my TDI commentary was literally only three parts. I did actually plan to make it just two, but then I divided the second part into two parts after some people told me it was too long. Then once TDA came, I divided my commentary into a bit more parts than before and started going through the episodes a bit more thoroughly. It wasn’t till WT and ROTI where I really started making extensive comments on a handful of moments throughout each episode. However, it got to a point where I felt like I was bringing up way too many minor moments that ‘stuck out’ to me in my commentary, and there was a certain point where I realized not much people will care about looking through every minor moment I found funny. So after my AS commentary rolled around (where I really hyped it up as a dark period of time filled with anger and ranting💀), I incorporated this feature where I separately linked moments from YouTube I deemed as more minor that I found amusing, just labeling the link as the name of the character(s) involved in said moment. However, even doing that proved to be too much for me eventually as RR rolled around, and I realized it was taking forever to be done with each episode. I feel like sometimes, I really fell under the trap of being excessively ‘detail-oriented’ and bringing up almost every moment I found even slightly amusing. Thankfully during the 5th part of my RR post, I decided to get rid of the feature of linking minor moments all together after I realized probably no one even bothers going through them anyways. And I just mainly kept commentary down to more major points regarding each episode, although I still took notes on various minor stuff, just for me to reference. I’m glad to say it worked very well, and I was able to power through each episode quite faster and pump out vast majority of the series before my recent winter break was over
Then there’s also the fact I took a huge break from this series for several months on end. As some of you might remember, around this time about a year and a month ago, after finishing up All-Stars, I loosely admitted I had to get my shit together in real life, namely with school. Though even aside from that, I think I was just heavily burned out from doing the series. In fact, it took WAY longer than I anticipated to find the motivation to start it up again. Hell, I even tried to start it back up during the summer, but ironically, I didn’t do so until sometime in fall. Ironically, when I took this extensive break from the series, I was finished with AS and only had two more seasons to go. But given just how burned out I was, it still took me more than a year to completely wrap things up. Though the most important part is, I FINALLY GOT IT DONE! And despite this, I would like to think I didn’t necessarily sacrifice quality a whole lot (despite the lack of planning behind this), even if it’s partially because this series has dragged out even longer than Derrie at this point LOL. If I have to be honest though, this certainly took a surprising amount of work. Like I kinda knew it would be a lot, but I didn’t expect it to be as tedious as it was at times. Even pumping out the very first post (my initial TDA review) was quite a drag and ended up taking longer than I wanted it too, and I remember being relieved when it was done. And that feeling just amplified after every season I tackled. And I can say after releasing this post, there is no other time I feel this as strongly as now. Oh yeah and on a side note, I’m happy to say I’m actually doing marginally better in real life now than before (and now that this series is done, I think I can especially be at a peace of mind and focus even more on other stuff)
With all of this in mind, do I regret doing this series? All things considered, not really. As I said, it got extremely tedious at times, and I definitely got very burned out. And I even admitted during my PI review that I had various doubts or anxious thoughts regarding this series (though despite this still decided to pull through). But I think as of getting this series done, this has solidified my opinions far more, and hopefully I won’t make a bunch of tier list updates in the future💀. On top of this, I did have quite a bit of fun typing out my thoughts at times, especially the rants. That and it was certainly satisfying seeing people appreciate my commentary a lot, especially with my huge SMS tirade I dedicated one single part for XD. With that being said, do I ever plan on doing this again? Absolutely not. Although it’s not necessarily a bad idea to take some notes when you are doing a rewatch if you want to remember more stuff, or actually have a stronger opinion on various things (especially good for when you want to geek out about TD with others, or debate with someone about something). However, I don’t think making a ranking chart is super necessary. Ultimately, I’d say only do this if you have a ton of free time and are super obsessed with ranking stuff, otherwise you will probably end up like me and be burned out from doing this series from time to time. In fact, I think easily the biggest weakness of this series (I reckon a lot of you probably agree with this as well) is how inconsistent I was 'momentum-wise' as far as getting it done. I feel like this would’ve been super great to pump out earlier on while the pandemic was still going. But as it stands, I happened to start this series towards the end of the summer of 2021 back when I was going into my freshman year of college, and unfortunately did not have as much time to pump these posts out super fast. I also have to admit, I do sometimes think maybe if I made it a review series, I wouldn’t have to worry as much about trying to ‘adjust’ and could comment on a lot of specific moments. But I feel like doing episode reviews would be kind of more redundant at this point, and doing it the way I did made things somewhat more efficient. With that being said, I could do an episode review series for once the new seasons come out👀. Aside from this, I realize I probably could’ve also tried to make things more interesting by adding some gimmicks to my commentary, similar to Ultranatic Productions or u/twofacedflyer and u/WOTWUZTHAT back in their respective series’ they did (or ongoing series in Ultranatic’s case). But bigger picture-wise, I’m pretty satisfied with how this series turned out
Overall this was a fun but incredibly long ride. In case I haven’t made it clear enough, I’m honestly extremely relieved to be done with this. But on top of this, I’m also incredibly grateful to everyone who has followed this series. Like I said, I didn’t even expect this to become a full-blown series, but I truly appreciate everyone who actually cared enough to read through my ramblings and comment on them. But with that in mind, there are certain people who has supported me through this series I would especially like to give a shout-out to

Shoutouts

Before I bring up the people who involved themselves in this series, I’d like to give a shout-out to two YouTubers in particular who I took some inspiration from time to time with my commentary, namely Ultranatic Productions and penguinz0 (or as a lot of you might know him as MoistCr1TiKaL), both of who are absolute legends. For starters, there’s Ultranatic Productions (AKA u/Ultranatic on Reddit) who is doing his own series of reviewing every TD episodes, except this time far more thoroughly and intricately compared to me. I mean, I thought doing this series was a lot, relatively speaking. But I can only imagine the work Ultranatic has to do what he does, from not only writing out a script where he articulates all his thoughts and points, but then also records himself saying everything he has to say and then even has to do a bunch of editing afterwards, along with various gimmicks he incorporates in his videos. I’d imagine it’s a ton of work, and Ultranatic’s dedication to this is honestly pretty admirable. On top of this, he brings a ton of really cool points, has a lot of unique and nuanced takes, and incorporates a lot of great gags. Next up is penguinz0, who doesn’t talk about TD, but is a commentary YouTuber I’ve grown to absolutely love. I really love his dry wit, along with his ability to absolutely roast terrible people on the internet. I think quite a bit of my commentary style was inspired by him, and I even took a few pages out of Ultranatic here and there
As for people who participated in this series I’d like to thank

• u/someTDfan1: A fellow MacArthur hater, he’s not all that active on the sub and hasn’t been for a while now, but we are very tight, and he also commented on my first couple posts in this series (and I believe some very occasional other ones), and left some very kind words per usual. He’s also generally a super cool dude who is fun to talk and banter with and he’s even good for boosting my ego, er I meant confidence, at times🤪
• u/chuck_is_dead_vay_aq: A stan of Lightning and Jacques and fellow Chris-hater, while he didn’t comment very religiously, he always had quite a bit of great things to say when he did, is also responsible for coining the awesome nickname “All-Derailments” for All-Stars, and appreciated my nicknames for All-Stars as well as my posts in general (especially my SMS rant💀). Even outside of this, he’s an especially amazing dude, and one of my closest online friends. There are also plenty of times I’ve been convinced I actually share a brain with him lol (seriously, it’s actually scary how similar we are in some ways). And on a side note, I also want to once again really thank him for policing this sub and doing our mods’ work for us half of the time💀
• u/reidstampede2021: A Duncan stan who we also share a handful of common ground as far as opinions go (especially on Duncan’s send-off🤪), despite not being a religious commenter, he gave a lot of appreciation for my massive tirade on Duncan’s send-off, even making multiple comments copying-and-pasting it. He also appreciated some other jokes I made, also incorporating them in some comments of his. And not only do I find that incredibly flattering, but on top of that, he had the courtesy to credit me whenever he did so. And also if you know me somewhat well, boosting my ego flattery is one great way to make me like you😉 (though ofc that is far from the only reason he’s a cool dude)
• u/Ok_Shirt_1574: A stan of Zoey, Cody and Scott, as well as a shipper of Scott x Zoey, he has commented a lot of great points throughout my series, and took various points I made to heart. On top of this, he also appreciated my commentary from time to time, especially my CHFIL rant😉. And aside from this, the dude also makes some pretty dope episode reviews himself where he also incorporates various funny commentary
• u/Glamouriffic: Resident Derrie and Trent stan, she appreciated my posts from time to time, or even even commented on more specific reactions I had that stuck out to her. And she especially appreciated my rants, even being one of the two people to give me an award for my penguinz0-styled rant on Paris Sierra during the third part of my WT commentary
• u/A_Snowy_Vulpix: She barely commented on my series, but is the second person who gave me an award for my Paris Sierra tirade, so thank you
• u/HungryDiscipline882: A Lindsay lover who also has a lot of similar ways of thinking as me, he occasionally comments on my posts. Though on top of this, he also took quite a bit of inspiration from my commentary when stating various points of his, and admitted he liked a lot of the points I brought up, which is ofc flattering😎. And on another note, he also has a lot of great ideas as far as improving canon goes
• u/YourFaveWasDerailed: Everyone’s favorite satire account subreddit user, they sometimes commented some great insight on my posts regarding just how bad the show really is, truly inspiring me to just hate on the show. They also really read me like a book when he asked me “Why do you keep torturing yourself” after I posted my PI reviewlast part being a half-joke as this series really did get tiring at times. And on a more serious note, they even gave my series some appreciation at one point and broke character during his AMA to openly admit they find me cool, even if they did comment on my poll series poking fun whenever I went on especially…passionate rants about things I don’t like🤪. And even aside from this, dude is just simply a legend
• u/Less-Ad-9927: A cinema nerd and major, as well as a stan of Emma, Izzy and Dwayne, she didn’t start commenting till my RR posts. But when she did, she was especially supportive of my series and often commented on my posts bringing up various points she had, all the while acknowledging various points I made. Overall an amazing contributor to the final stretch of my series even despite the very faltering momentum
• u/Uglyfense: A stan of Courtney, Chris and Ezekiel, and widely known for trolling people’s opinions with his “What-if” questions, he has made a handful of great and thorough comments on my posts throughout, even conjuring up a bunch of interesting points as well as unique ways to look at things that push the boundaries beyond things that fans have already said at least 100 times. Fuck, the dude even made some good rebuttals against my review (big euphemism btw💀) on not only my most hated episode, but one of the most universally disliked episodes in the series. And on a random note, he’s also just proof that you don’t need to have a bunch of really strong negative opinions to stick out (dude likes pretty much every character yet still manages to be a very interesting TD discusser)

Now, every one of you involved are great. But I think these two following people have contributed the most

• u/Particular_Being_269: The sub’s resident music nerd, and more or less simp stan of Zoey and Gwen, the dude made a lot of especially nice comments appreciating my posts and commentary. On top of this, he’s yet another one of the people who actually took time to look at my rankings more in detail. Though despite all his positive feedback, along with Fense, he also wasn’t afraid to challenge and question my opinions quite a bit, even making some points that I haven’t considered before. And in retrospect, as a more passive and non-confrontational person who doesn’t usually like debating people a lot (mainly on the spot), this is definitely a trait I admire
• u/Ace_TD: Practically the face of this sub at this point, and the man who truly lives up to his name, the dude not only commented on my series quite often, even at times leaving very in-depth comments regarding my points and even adding onto various points I made in various ways. Though he has also talked about and inadvertently advertised my series to the TD Discord. Plus outside of this, he’s just simply a all-around amazing dude. He preaches a ton of facts on the TD Discord server, and he's just generally very fun to talk to

Aside from them, I’d also like to give a couple honorable mentions to u/twofacedflyer and u/WOTWUZTHAT, both of which have done similar series before mine that consisted of talking about characters. And while I didn’t totally plan for this to become a full-on series, I think they partially inspired me for when it did become a full series if that makes sense. And as I said, the format of this post is pretty inspired by u/twofacedflyer in various ways. And I’ll admit even in general, there were times I referred back to posts of his series whenever I got lost on how exactly to structure various posts of mine (including this one). As of now, they aren’t active on this sub anymore for varying reasons, but I had a real blast with both of them during their time here
And lastly, I’d like to thank this whole subreddit in general. It’s generally filled with a lot of open-minded and accepting people who are genuinely caring and willing to acknowledge other people as they express their thoughts. Now granted, I’m aware Reddit is far from perfect and is a lot of times not usually held in high regard (although it isn’t as problematic as say, Twitter or TikTok). But I think this subreddit is really proof that there is good to Reddit. And the support I got throughout this series is proof of that
And that officially wraps up the very gushy part of this post🤪

Thoughts on Total Drama

If you’ve followed my series or even generally read through enough things I’ve pumped out throughout my time on Reddit, you’ll likely know I’ve typed many rants on various facets of this show. Though despite this…it’s still quite good overall, and maybe even great. Granted, it has a lot of flaws and even some writing decisions that will forever baffle me (one of the most noteworthy examples being the winners losing their money at the end in ironically the widely regarded two best seasons). And I remember binge-watching 6teen a long while back thinking it was overall a lot more clean written than TD, which I think kind of gives the idea that there are probably many better handled shows overall. But at the same time, TD has way too many awesome highs for me to not like it. And outside of the two infamous seasons (AS and PI), I can safely say the positives will always outweigh the negatives. And if anything, even the various flaws the show has just makes it more fun to talk about sometimes. IDK what it is, but I low-key find ranting on things a guilty pleasure. I’ve said this before, but there’s a reason whenever I talk elaborately about something negatively, my walls of text will usually be longer than when I actually write about something positive. And there’s just a certain type of satisfaction I get from trying to find various ways to express and intricately word my distaste for stuff I don’t like, especially when it’s stuff that makes me passionately angry. So IG in a way…I have to give a thank you to aspects of the show like YRBKM, SMS, the Gwent breakup aftermath, CHFIL Sierra, Feral Zeke, MacArthur, Amy, the joke of the winner losing their money or especially PI Chris💀
Now for a runthrough on what I think of every season, Island was a solid start to the show and overall a great season. It isn’t without its problems such as various inconsistent or weird moments, the main antagonist being rather lackluster (mainly in the gameplay department), or especially Gwen’s treatment as a finalist and the fact it’s one of the two seasons with easily one of the absolute worst “jokes” in the entire series. But despite this, it still has many great things about it, and a generally chill atmosphere
Next came Action which was also good overall, but has quite more noteworthy flaws, especially the aftermath of the Gwent fallout, along with Beth’s character-assassinating romance plot. However, it is the best season as far as challenges go, and I happen to prefer the antagonist over the one in TDI…well, at least once Courtney comes into the picture (we don’t talk about Justin). The finalist pairs are also one of the weaker ones overall, but even then, their interactions and the finale itself actually worked surprisingly well, despite the very ending also leaving a fair amount to be desired
Then came World Tour, which at best was a very epic and adventurous change of pace from the first two seasons. And it even implemented musicals as a unique feature of this season (which included a lot of bangers albeit a few flops), and on a side note, introduced this truly amazing piece of background music I really wish there was an extended version of that I could download and listen to for hours on end😭. The antagonist is easily the best in the entire series, both gameplay and character-wise. And the finalist choices were practically perfect narratively, despite both having some more glaring flaws gameplay-wise here and there. And the finale was shaping up to be absolutely amazing…but unfortunately ended on a really sour note. Aside from this, there are a few other controversial plots and writing decisions I don’t like. However, one thing I especially respect about WT is how high the stakes were. This season really feels like you had to actually play the game in order to get far, rather that just being nice. In fact, this might just be one of the best and most intriguing seasons for those who especially care more about the strategic aspect of TD. Overall, I feel like WT is one of those seasons that just went especially ballsy with its writing and actually did really well with the execution at times. Though at the same time, there are multiple areas really lacking in execution and some especially terrible lows. Despite this, it is overall a better season than TDA, but there had yet to be a season that topped the quality of Island
That is until Revenge of the Island came along. After spending 3 seasons getting to know the first generation cast, we then got introduced to a set of new characters, and a really great one at that. Personally, I think this is easily the peak of the series. Generally speaking, pretty much almost every character is utilized really well (barring Staci). And it also has a lot of especially epic moments along with an adventurous feel. The pacing is also really good, and there are many great jokes. Scott as an antagonist is also amazing, even though he also isn't without flaws and doesn't quite top Alejandro. On top of this, I think this season does a great job of balancing both drama and friendships, and handling both really well. There are various conflicts that are surprisingly complex, engaging, or also entertaining. But mixed with that are still a lot of wholesome and interactions. And even generally speaking, it just seemed to be able to handle and balance most aspects of the show really well. That and it also has easily my two favorite episodes in the entire series. Really, ROTI is a masterpiece all-around, and I could gush about it all day if I wanted
Though unfortunately, the very season after ROTI did NOT hold up to its quality, as the worst season coincidentally happened right after the best season😭. I know I’m not being brave when I call this the worst season. There’s just so many bad writing decisions, and it also has easily two of my least favorite episodes in the franchise, which funny enough both happen to be responsible for screwing over two very prominent characters who had a lot of development potential. And on that topic, it does that a lot. It feels like at least half of the cast loses a ton of brain-cells during their elimination episode…or in various other episodes outside of that too. And part of it ties to what has to be easily my least favorite antagonist yet, who also happens to be tied with probably ‘objectively’ (I used this word loosely tho) one of the worst protagonists in the series as well (Mike vs. Mal). And yeah, on that topic, the main plot is also just atrocious and ends on one of the worst notes possible. But even despite this, it still has its good moments and enough positives for me to not hate it. There are a handful of characters I actually like, and I’d say Zoey was still good this season despite her flaws, and not a bad finalist. Though generally speaking, it’s just such a huge disappointment in many ways and easily the lowest point of the franchise
After this disappointing trainwreck came Pahkitew Island, where the writers decided to go completely balls to the wall with the cartoonish aspects of the show. I will say, it is better than AS overall, but…only because it has better highs (including my absolute favorite character in the series). On the contrary, I think it actually has worse lows. Funny enough, it just so happens that this season has some of the highest highs of all time, but also some of the absolute lowest lows, including my two absolute least favorite season-by-season character appearances in the entire series. It especially doesn’t help that while LCAOBP isn’t my least favorite episode overall, it ends ‘regular’ Total Drama in one of the worst ways possible
Thankfully though, the one spin-off that came after this happened to actually be quite good, and definitely a big step up from the previous two seasons. Not only did it start new with the game format, but it also started fresh in terms of writing-quality. Granted, even then it is far from perfect. There are quite a few glaring flaws for me as far as characters go, especially including the existence of my least favorite protagonist in the entire series (even worse than AS Mike). But even then, the season had the advantage of screen-time being distributed especially more evenly, to where even if some characters sucked, it wasn’t always enough to drag the episode down. In fact, aside from ROTI, it’s the one season that has no full-on bad episodes for me. And the fact I find the host vastly superior and that it’s responsible for the existence of my TD waifu, both especially give it an edge. Overall, I think this season was quite refreshing and satisfying after the previous two seasons, and I’m proud to call it yet another higher point of TD and quite a good end to the franchise
And then lastly there’s Total Dramarama, although I haven’t watched it in a fat minute and don’t plan on covering it as of this series. Though from what I remember from watching it a long while back, I actually liked it for the most part. There were some occasional moments I really didn’t like, and the Chef torture could sometimes go too far for my liking. But for the most part, it’s pretty entertaining and has some plots I really like. All I’ll say is my favorite episode is definitely “Having the Timeout of our Lives”, with my least favorite being “Total Eclipse of the Fart” like many others
So overall, Total Drama is a pretty great and iconic series despite its flaws, and I am proud to call myself a fan of the show. I mean, there’s no other reason I would be this dedicated to talking about it. It would be awkward and a waste of time if I looked into and discussed this show for so long, only for the end result to be that I don’t like it (and I know YFWD would absolutely decimate me LMFAO). Fresh TV, you are awesome, and I really look forward to the upcoming new seasons

Final Show Rankings

Now it’s time for my general ratings regarding Total Drama, and this time on a scale of 100. I should also say, I’ve always had a hard time fully deciding my season rankings, so I figured I’d make a more intricate attempt to gauge my exact opinions on each season. And through this, I made a ranking table, where I rate multiple different facets of the show from 0 to 100. Now it’s worth noting I made more specific calculations for the episodes and character portion, and some rougher calculations for the romance and finalists categories. I also based the finale category mainly on my ranking of each episode of said finale. And the rest are more rough estimates. And on a last note, I stuck with the 147 season-by-season character incarnations when determining the scores for the characters category (so no background characters, cameos, or Mike’s personalities other than Mal). So these are likely not 100% accurate, but considering I’m mainly just using this to try to order my seasons, I don’t think it’s too big of a deal. Not to mention the scores are rounded by 0.5 increments
Season ranking chart
NGL, the Reddit table feature is kind of pain to use, so instead, I opted to just put the table in another Google Doc for me to link here, along with an explanation of how it works
Just a couple additional factors I included for seasons (adds or subtracts 35 on the 700 scale)

• Winner loses money: -5.0 points
• Contains a top 5 season-by-season character incarnation: +5.0 points

Overall ratings
Seasons

• TDI: 77.0 - 5.0 + 5.0 => 77.0/100
• TDA: 59.5 + 5.0 => 64.5/100
• WT: 71.0 - 5.0 => 66.0/100
• ROTI: 91.0 + 5.0 => 96.0/100
• AS: 37.5 => 37.5/100
• PI: 45.0 + 5.0 => 50.0/100
• RR: 69.5 + 5.0 => 74.5/100

Each facet of the show in general

• Drama: 60.0
• Friendships: 76.0
• Finalists: 71.0
• Finales: 46.0
• Characters: 70.5
• Episodes: 65.0
• Romance: 61.5

Final Season Rankings
#7: TDAS
#6: TDPI
#5: TDA
#4: TDWT
#3: TDPTRR
#2: TDI
#1: TDROTI
My personal rating of the show
Actual average: 3256/4900 => 66.5/100
Tho wait, ROTI exists (and ofc the show is super fun to talk about and look into in general😉)
Final rating: 75/100 => 7.5/10

Other stats and a bunch of Top 5’s

Now that I showcased my general thoughts on this series, we are one step further before I reveal all my final rankings. But beforehand, I want to showcase a list of a bunch of mini rankings (yes once again, this is inspired by u/twofacedflyer). It’s also worth nothing the HM’s/DHM’s are not necessarily in order
Funniest Characters
#5: Noah (WT)
#4: Izzy (TDA)
#3: Lightning (AS)
#2: Dwayne (RR)
#1: Spud (RR)
HM: Max (PI), Owen (WT), Owen (RR), Harold (TDA)
Best character arcs
#5: Gwen (TDI)
#4: Cameron (ROTI)
#3: Zoey (ROTI)
#2: Emma (RR)
#1: Shawn (PI)
HM: Dwayne & Junior (RR), Heather (WT), Brick (ROTI), Lindsay (TDA), Spud (RR)
Best lines
#5: "I work best under pressure. Hah! Get it? Water pressure" -Harold (Masters of Disasters)
#4: (Chris: "The camper...) "...who does not receive a marshmallow must immediately return to the dock of shame catch the boat of losers and leave, can't we just get this over with?" -Gwen (Paintball Deer Hunter)
#3: “Of course you can, you’re an EXPERT at turning people off!” -Alejandro (Planes, Trains, and Hot Air Mobiles)
#2: “No one can touch my tomatoes!” -Lindsay (Million Dollar Babies)
#1: “I love Chef because he is very very very very very very very…” -Duncan (Basic Straining)
HM: “There’s no nice way to say this…I’D RATHER GET EATED BY A ZOMBIE!” -Shawn (This is the Pits), “Last time I thought zombies were here, I was too scared to try and save Jasmine. I’M NOT MAKING THAT MISTAKE AGAIN. NOT AGAIN!” -Shawn (Hurl and Go Seek), "🎵THIIIIIS SUUUUUUUUUUUCKS!🎵" -Duncan (Walk Like an Egyptian Part 1), “You’re like Albert Einstein, with better hair, and ✨girly bits✨” -Harold (The Sand Witch Project)
Best couples
#5: Ozzy (TDA)
#4: Nemma (RR)
#3: Duncney (TDI)
#2: Aleheather (WT)
#1: Shawsmine (PI)
HM: Samkota (ROTI), Aleheather (AS), Gidgette (TDI), Zoke (ROTI), Ryphanie (RR) and Ozzy (TDI)
Best rivalries
#5: Duncan vs. Courtney (WT)
#4: Brick vs. Jo (ROTI)
#3: Duncan vs. Alejandro (WT)
#2: Gwen/Leshawna vs. Heather
#1: Zoey vs. Scott (ROTI)
HM: Duncan vs. Alejandro (WT), Geoff vs. Blaineley (WT), Lightning vs. Jo (ROTI), Cameron vs. Lightning (ROTI) and Duncan vs. Harold (TDI/TDA)
Best friendships
#5: The Rockers (RR)
#4: Gwen & Leshawna (TDI)
#3: Harold & Heather (TDA)
#2: The Surfers (RR)
#1: Zoey & Cameron (ROTI)
HM: Gwen & Geoff (TDI), Noah & Owen (WT/RR), Owen & Kitty (RR), Owen & Gwen (TDI), Harold & Heather (TDA), the friendship trio (ROTI), Gwen & Cameron (AS), Ryan & Carrie (RR), Lindsay & DJ (WT), Duncan & Zoey (AS), and Jasmine & Sammy (PI)
Best moments
#5: Zoey riding the mutant goats (S4E10)
#4: Kitty’s payback to the Cadets and Ice-Dancers (S7E24)
#3: Harold saves everyone’s lives (S2E10)
#2: Kitty making it back up to the surface with her mad breath-holding skillz (S7E25)
#1: Shawn goes full giga-chad on the Chris bots (S6E10)
HM: Lindsay cursing Heather out (S1E18), Surfers in the Dude Buggies challenge (S7E19), Heather’s (implied) clam-chowder soup prank on Alejandro (S3E10), Duncan’s essay to Chef (S1E12), Iron Cam (S4E13), any moment Chris gets his ass kicked, and many more I’m too lazy to list
Worst moments
#5: Feral Zeke vs. Heather (S3E26)
#4: Gwen having her money taken against own will after her ending (S1E27)
#3: Courtney’s sendoff (S5E11)
#2: Duncan’s sendoff (S5E8)
#1: The ending of the finale in general, though with a big emphasis on Chris’ departure… (S6E13)
DHM: The Cody and Sierra subplot resolution (S3E9), MacArthur taking advantage of Brody (S7E26), the Reset Button (S5E13), CamCourtney (S5E9/S5E10), and the intern “gag” in general
Worst derailments
#5: Courtney (S5E11)
#4: Gwen (S3E16)
#3: Jasmine (S6E8)
#2: Duncan (S5E8)
#1: Cameron (S5E9)
DHM: Beth (S2E10 & E23), Trent (S2E26-E27), Scott (S5E9-E10), Leshawna (S3E7), and at least half of the AS cast in their elimination episodes
And now, here are my top and bottom 30 episode by episode appearances for each character throughout the series and no im not dedicated enough to make a ranking of EVERY episode by episode appearance. It’s worth noting, some of the scores are the exact same. Usually to determine which goes higher, I decided by which appearance had more relevance that episode. Though there are even some cases where multiple appearances have both the exact same score and relevance. In that case, I just went with my gut feeling on which I prefer ever-so-slightly
Top 30
#30: Gwen (S2E27) - 17.55
#29: Gwen (S1E5) - 17.55
#28: Heather (S3E25) - 17.55
#27: Emma (S7E25) - 17.55
#26: Shawn (S6E9) - 17.60
#25: Gwen (S1E21) - 17.60
#24: Spud (S7E14) - 17.60
#23: Cameron (S4E11) - 17.60
#22: Alejandro (S3E25) - 17.60
#21: Noah (S7E11) - 17.60
#20: Owen (S7E11) - 17.61
#19: Geoff (S7E17) - 17.65
#18: Duncan (S1E12) - 17.65
#17: Heather (S3E26) - 17.65
#16: Cameron (S413) - 17.65
#15: Alejandro (S3E11) - 17.70
#14: Kitty (S7E19) - 17.70
#13: Harold (S2E27) - 17.75
#12: Brody (S7E19) - 17.75
#11: Heather (S3E10) - 17.75
#10: Zoey (S4E12) - 17.75
#9: Gwen (S1E19) - 17.75
#8: Heather (S3E20) - 17.80
#7: Geoff (S7E19) - 17.80
#6: Lindsay (S1E18) - 17.80
#5: Zoey (S4E10) - 17.85
#4: Kitty (S7E24) - 17.90
#3: Harold (S2E10) - 17.93
#2: Kitty (S7E25) - 17.95
#1: Shawn (S6E10) - 17.97
Total amount of top tier episode by episode incarnations: 92 (34 of them being 17.5 or higher)
Below 17.50: 7 (TDI) + 8 (TDA) + 15 (WT) + 9 (ROTI) + 3 (AS) + 3 (PI) + 13 (RR) = 58 (emit)
Bottom 30
#30: Katie (S2E12) - 0.80
#29: Chris (S5E11) - 0.80
#28: Chef (S6E11) - 0.75
#27: Chris (S6E6) - 0.70
#26: Izzy (S3E11) - 0.70
#25: Amy (S6E5) - 0.70
#24: Beth (S2E10) - 0.65
#23: Chef (S3E26) - 0.60
#22: Sugar (S6E6) - 0.60
#21: Heather (S1E9) - 0.55
#20: Chris (S6E7) - 0.53
#19: Chris (S6E5) - 0.53
#18: MacArthur (S7E19) - 0.50
#17: Amy (S6E2) - 0.40
#16: Chef (S3E2) - 0.35
#15: Chris (S3E26) - 0.35
#14: Chris (S1E26) - 0.30
#13: Chris (S3E2) - 0.30
#12: Mal (S5E13) - 0.30
#11: Chris (S6E8) - 0.27
#10: Sierra (S3E9) - 0.25
#9: Chris (S6E10) - 0.21
#8: Chris (S3E14) - 0.20
#7: Chris (S6E11) - 0.19
#6: MacArthur (S7E26) - 0.18
#5: Ezekiel (S3E26) - 0.15
#4: Chris (S3E13) - 0.15
#3: Amy (S6E1) - 0.10
#2: Chris: (S1E27) - 0.03
#1: Chris: (S6E13) - 0.00
Total amount of bottom tier episode by episode incarnations: 37
And that wraps up the long wall of text along with all my mini rankings. I figured this post would be too long if I included all of this just in one post, so I decided to make this 2 parts. Next part is the real deal, where I show off a few different ranking lists, and then finally my character rankings (you can find it via this link)

Hi all, please delete if not allowed. I want to clarify that I have not been diagnosed with OCD. I do have autism and severe anxiety.
!TRIGGER WARNING!
Since I was 12 (10 years ago) I've had violent thoughts and images mainly about myself. They normally start when I'm really anxious or have just had a difficult social interaction. The thoughts are repetitive, and usually are along the lines of "you need to die", "kill yourself", "you should've died years ago". The images are the most distressing for me and make me incredibly anxious and sad when they happen. They're very intense, the type of stuff you'd see in a horror movie. I've been told to ignore them or think of something else, but I really feel I have no control of them.
I also sometimes have these images towards others when I'm overwhelmed e.g someone talking for too long or two people talking at once. I also had them when I was younger if I was mad at a friend. These are less graphic then the ones towards myself, e.g smashing the persons head on the table.
The thing is that I don't really fear I'm going to do these specific things, but when I have them I do worry that I'm going to go into a psychosis or something similar. I just feel out of touch with reality.
Could this be OCD, part of my autism or something else? Any advice would be great

Today I found bites on my body. They're not clustered together but they are raised, mostly on my upper arms and stomach. I have a pretty substantial feaobsession with bedbugs after having encountered them a few years ago, so I know all the signs and what to look for and how to look for them and I haven't found anything (and I've torn my room apart).
I'm American, but I'm studying abroad in Europe this semester so I am living in a very cheap dorm-style lodging where my entire room is a bed and a desk. Nothing in there. I have done a fair bit of traveling, which naturally leads to increased risk of bedbugs, but like I said I am scared out of my mind of them so I am pretty f'ing diligent when it comes to checking beds, washing/drying everything, etc. But I still woke up with bites. I am freaking out-- of course my bedding and most of my clothes are in the wash but for some reason the fact that I'm in a foreign country right now makes the thought that I have bed bugs so scary because I don't know how to navigate French exterminators or even what I do.
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Should I wait till I have proof of a bug? Is there any chance these bites could be something else? Thanks for anyone's help/advice.

In my restless dreams... Oh wait that's the wrong franchise xDD
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Hello GiftofGames!!!
Today I am making this post in hopes of getting a game called Resident Evil 4 Remake, a Remake of one of my all time favorite games and definitely my favorite RE game. I will try not to make this post too long but there are some things I wanna go over so that everyone reading this post can understand how much I actually love this entire franchise, Horror as a genre and Video Games overall.

Horror is comforting

My favorite genre in Video Games, Movies, Books, Manga and pretty much everything is Horror. One of the first movies I have ever watched was the original "Scream" and "The Ring" (2002) (Scream has remained my favorite Horror movie of all time!!). Last year I also started reading Horror Mangas with my favorite Manga writteartist being Junji Ito, and if that name is familiar to you it is probably because he was attached to the now canceled P.T. a.k.a. Silent Hills.
Maybe it's because I started watching those movies at a very young age, but Horror movies have always been my favorite genre and it's been no different with Video Games. My favorite game of all time is no other than Silent Hill 2, a game that I consider to be completely flawless and have finished it so many times that I have lost count by now!! Actually, my entire Steam account is Horror themed with lot's of gifs, Screenshots and Horror games.
I would love to hear what's your favorite scary movie? ;)

Resident Evil 4 redefined Gaming forever

Every Third Person over-the-shoulder game owes everything to RE4. What Capcom managed to make with RE4 on Gamecube is nothing short of spectacular. Game being ported on pretty much every platform imaginable just proves how much general public loved and enjoyed re-playing this game over and over again.
Gameplay was smooth and responsive. There were so many unlockables and juuust the right amount of collectibles that made every playthrough fresh and enjoyable. Being able to unlock different Weapons and Outfits was something that made me keep coming back to replay this game whenever I had nothing else to play.
The cheesy humor was definitely done well in RE4, there were so many hilarious moments that fans have been making memes of for decades now. I mean there is literally a character in the game called Big Cheese!!
I hope I haven't been ranting here for too long... Wait, where is everyone going? Bingo? ;)

RE4R Demo is out

So, a while back Capcom actually released RE4R Demo on Steam and Consoles and the reason why I haven't played it for more than like 20 minutes or so is because I wanted to experience everything fresh when I get to play the full and complete game. I wanted to avoid it completely but being as weak as I am... I had to at least try it out. (x_x)
Gameplay, Atmosphere, Graphics and Character animations and dialogues were so well done. The reviews were not lying when they called this game a masterpiece!!
Something that I feared about this Remake was them missing out on that perfect atmosphere at the very beginning, when you get to control Leon for the first time. You enter that deep creepy forest, with little to no ambient sound with just one house at the end of the road and a single pistol hand. This perfect setup and feeling of loneliness is what drew me into this game completely when I played it for the first time. They managed to make you immersed into the game completely just with that first impression. And you know what they say about first impressions... ;)

I got all Achievements on RE2R and RE4

As you probably know, RE4 is a direct sequel to RE2 with many characters returning and this is the first time we got to see Leon after everything that has happened to him in RE2. There two games are actually my two favorite games in the entire franchise, I have played them and finished them numerous amount of times and overtime managed to get all of the Achievements for both of them!! (Which you can see on my Steam account and by clicking on link above).
RE4 also has my favorite Save Room theme out of all of the RE games titles "Serenity".

Why I can't afford it?

Okay let's talk about this now... Since I have lot's of games on my Steam account, it would make sense for me to be able to afford RE4R for myself right? Well... 60$ is actually a pretty big price for me. Only time when I can get a game or two for myself is when they are on sale and strictly only when they are on sale. I have never been able to buy a game that expensive since 60$ is like 1/4th of my total income.
If I do get this game gifted to me, I can assure you that I will spend lots of time playing it. The last game I got gifted here on this sub was Horizon Zero Dawn and I ended up playing it for 63h~ and I also got all of the Achievements for this game as well!! That's how much I value every game I got gifted here and money that people spend on those same games.
Even you, the reader, making it all the way down here to the very end of my post means a lot to me. I have tried including every important detail without making this post too big and long so to everyone taking the time of their lives and reading through everything I have one big THANK YOU to all of you!! I’m sure you boys didn’t just read all this so we can sing Kumbaya together at some boy scout bonfire.
ALSO BEFORE YOU LEAVE, I got a question for ya: What is your favorite Resident Evil game?

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The latest Chapter for the on going story, New World Order is now available for everyone's viewing. It can also be found at https://www.fanfiction.net/s/13535599/21/New-World-Order
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‘Did you really have to threaten to open fire on one of your fellow countrymen?’ I hear Jensen ask via an overhead speaker.
“Jensen,” I start, wincing slightly as I readjust my position in the makeshift bed, I had been forced into despite my many protests, “I don’t make threats. If I say I’m going to do something, I’ll make it happen.”
‘That doesn’t help,’ Jensen replies, ‘It also doesn’t help that you delivered that statement to an Enlisted Officer.’
“He’s lucky that’s all I did,” I reply, “Mark was a self-entitled bully back when we were at school. And his attitude certainly hasn’t improved based on our brief encounter the other day.”
‘They’ve lodged an official complaint,’ Jensen states, ‘Apparently they want know why a Nazi flagged ship entered the harbour, threatened the Coast Guard and then simply sailed off.’
“They don’t want to know anything about the attempted air raid, or the battle just off the coast that repelled that air raid?” I ask.
‘There is no mention anywhere in their complaint of seeing any aircraft above the harbour,’ Jensen replies, ‘Although they are also wanting to know about the mystery figure they spotted skating around one of the islands in the harbour.’
“Out of interest,” I ask, “Has anyone from the Chinese Government made a statement about this?”
‘Not officially,’ Jensen answers, ‘Although there have been some back-channel discussions. From what they have disclosed to us, they did witness the air raid and the defensive actions your fleet took. As to their inaction. They were unable to verify our warning to them in time to be able to raise the warning with their boats.’
“That entire engagement lasted almost two hours,” I say shaking my head in disbelief, “If they want answers, I’ll answer them if they can tell me why their only response was to send a single Coast Guard cutter out to investigate.”
‘As I said,’ Jensen begins, ‘They make no mention of seeing any of this in their complaint.’
“Then they are either covering it up, are incompetent or both,” I state, “The lack of action from the Chinese ships that were in the harbour can probably be explained as not wanting to start an International Incident. But I’m not buying the story that no one else saw what was going on that morning.”
‘It certainly does seem that someone is trying to cover this up,’ Jensen agrees, ‘However, without a full investigation into what happened, it’s your word against theirs. And being as you withdrew from the area almost as soon as the battle was over you can see why it doesn’t look good.’
“They’ll have a hard time explaining away all the evidence from the battlefield,” I say, “The boys at the lab are going to be busy for a while documenting everything.”
‘What evidence?’ Jensen asks.
“Well aside from numerous parts from the aircraft that attacked Darwin,” I begin, “The reason I withdrew as fast as I could was, we were able to recover one of the enemy boats.”
‘Have you learned anything about how they work?’ Jensen asks.
“I haven’t been aboard,” I admit, “I’ve been confined to bedrest for the last week.”
‘Its not like you to follow doctors’ orders,’ Jensen comments, ‘You normally ignore most medical advice.’
“What doctor?” I ask, “I still have to be given the all clear from the medical team once we get back to Midway.”
‘Sounds serious,’ Jensen replies, ‘What happened?’
“A concussion of some sort and what I believe to be at least two broken ribs,” I answer, “The ship came under direct attack and Eugen was forced to make some rapid course changes, which sent me bouncing through a hatchway on my way to the deck.”
‘So how long until you reach Midway?’ Jensen inquires.
“Probably two weeks at best guess,” I reply, “Between the slow speed we need to maintain due to having a heavily damaged ship under tow and the rough weather down here it’s making for a slow return voyage.”
‘Well keep in briefed,’ Jensen comments before I hear the audible click as the phone connection ends.
**
As the skies slowly began to illuminate marking the start of another day, I found myself out on deck during one of the rare moments I had been allowed to leave my quarters.
In the distance the outline of the main laboratory building came into view as Eugen skilfully navigating her ship around the atoll towards the area reserved for offshore mooring of large ships that visited Midway.
As the ship rounded the western most edge of the atoll, the details of the upgrades the team had been working on became apparent. The barge which had been used to transport the huge generator from Darwin had been beached not far from the main power station.
Another larger building had also started to take shape not far from the main laboratories although its purpose was lost on me given the last reports, I had read indicated that we were only using around sixty percent of the facilities storage and research spaces and under forty percent of the living areas.
“It would seem that the team has been busy in our absence,” I comment aloud.
As I say this the rising sun clears the top of the main building, bathing the waters around the atoll in light. Taking in the sight I spy Bogue’s ship moored in the distance. My gaze is soon captured however as in the growing light across the waves a pair of large, heavily armed gun boats lay at anchor.
As Eugen slows her ship and in the near distance I hear the rattle of numerous anchor chains, I take in the details of the closest ship. From the stern flag post a white flag with a red pattern hangs limp in the still morning.
As I scan across the length of the ship, I take note of the numerous sets of gun turrets spread along the length of the main deck from just below the bridge structure running back to just ahead of the number four main battery.
My attention however is soon drawn away to the second of the gun boats, this ship despite from the distance appearing to be slightly smaller in size projected more fear despite fact that like the other ships anchored around the atoll was simply floating at anchor in the low morning swells.
I put the additional sense of projected fear down to the fact that the entire ship appeared to be painted in a flat black paint from the waterline all the way to the very top of the super structure. The only hint of another colour was the flag hanging from the stern post.
**
“Do you have any lingering effects from the hit to your head?” the doctor asks.
“No,” I reply with a shake of my head, “The headaches cleared up about three days after. The burly vision and ringing in my ears cleared up around the same time.”
“Well,” the doctor says turning off the torch he had been using a moment before, “I’d say you have a minor concussion. But if you aren’t suffering any of the after effects now, you should be fine to return to your regular duties. As for your ribs.” He continues turning to a scan pinned to a light board on the wall. “They are healing well. But you definitely broke two. There’s not much else we can do to speed up your recovery there. Just take it easy.”
“That’s easier said than done,” I retort sarcastically.
“Yes,” the doctor agrees, “You do have a habit of being right where the action is.”
“Speaking of action,” I say changing the subject, “What have I missed here?”
“A lot,” the doctor admits, “However the Professor said he’ll brief you once we were finished here.”
**
Five minutes later, after the doctor signed off on my medical reports, I enter the main research room to find the Professor sitting in front of his usual multi monitor setup rapidly scrolling through an endless stream of what appeared to be computer code from a distance. “Pull up a chair Nathan,” he says, “We’ve got a lot to discuss.”
“It would seem so,” I answer remaining standing a short distance away next to a table littered with pages of reports. “Can we begin with an update from the Global Explorer. Surely Jim has reported in by now?”
“He sent a pair of video data folders yesterday,” Professor Strickland answers, “Two separate files he says are from two different locations. He labelled them with the co-ordinates.”
“Anything interesting in the videos?” I ask.
“Plenty if you’re interest lies in the contour of the ocean floor,” Strickland answers with a slight chuckle, “But aside from that. Nothing of importance. I still don’t know why you sent him to either of those locations.”
“Because I needed to confirm a theory,” I reply, “Both of those sites he checked out are where the wrecks of the Akagi and Kaga were found.”
“And that proves a theory?” Strickland asks.
“It certainly lends a lot of support to my theory,” I reply, “Whoever is behind the attacks out at sea has been testing us. Well testing our military at the very least. So far, they’ve employed tactics from our history against us, and are using weapons from our past against us as well.”
“To what end though?” Strickland asks, “None of that makes any sense.”
“I agree,” I say, “But look carefully at what we know. Pearl Harbour was attacked in very similar fashion to how the Japanese did at the start of the Pacific War. And what do we find floating in the middle of the Pacific Ocean but a ship that matches perfectly to one of the very ships that was involved in the original battle. A ship that by rights should be on the bottom of the Pacific a couple of hundred nautical miles away from this atoll.”
“But we still don’t know the who or the what,” Strickland insists, “We also don’t know how far this goes?”
“I think we can safely say it goes as far as every ocean on the planet,” I reply, “I’m certainly no expert when it comes to warfare. But whoever is behind this is playing for keeps. They’ve already openly attacked at American Naval Base, a British Fleet out at sea and conducted two Air Raids on major ports in Australia. Plus, there’s enough evidence to believe they ambushed an American Fleet as well.”
“So, your theory is that we are at war with an unknown enemy?” Strickland presses.
“Yes,” I answer, “So far though. I believe they have only been testing our abilities. Otherwise, this would be on every news network around the globe. Right now, the only reason we know anything is through sheer luck.”
“It would seem that you are not alone in thinking that,” Strickland admits, “One of our newest arrivals is of the same opinion.”
“Yes,” I begin, “I meant to ask earlier about the two ships anchored off the atoll. Care to fill me in on that?”
“Do you remember the briefing before you left,” Strickland says, “Where we covered our theory on what those cubes we keep finding are.”
“I remember,” I reply, “The theory is that they contain data of some sort. Only the scanners could not complete the scans due to overheating.”
“The new generator solved that problem,” Strickland announces proudly, “With the extra power, we were able to stabilize the power supply and run additional cooling. We’ve also been able to read quite a few of those cubes now. We found a few of them to be blank however.”
“Blank?” I ask.
“Yes,” Strickland confirms, “Blank. Nothing on them at all. So, one of the junior programmers wondered what would happen if we tried to load data into a cube.”
“What sort of data?” I ask in a worried tone.
“It started off simple,” Strickland admits, “The team transferred about a dozen different ship designs into a couple of cubes. Then transferred data about various types of weapon systems, radars, tactical data from reports that we obtained from Jensen.”
“Does Jensen know about that?” I ask.
“He said it was okay,” Strickland answers, “He said most of the reports were public knowledge already and those that weren’t, were not subject to any privacy laws.”
“Okay, so now we have a bunch of cubes that contain technical and tactical data,” I say, “How does any of that equal two ships anchored off shore?”
“We subjected some of them to a large electrical charge,” Strickland answers simply.
“You didn’t,” I say feeling the colour drain from my face at the prospect.
“We sure did,” Strickland admits, “In fact your timing is perfect. Our first arrival from those experiments has just arrived.”
Turning towards the door, I notice a tall woman with long brown hair step through the open door to the lab. As she makes her way towards us a feeling of familiarity hits me. Everything about her appearance feels oddly like someone I had met before. From the prominent fox-like ears, numerous tails lazily waving behind her, even the style in how she wore her hair.
Then it hit me. Aside from the lighter shade of colour in her hair and the more modest choice of clothing, she nearly was identical in appearance to Akagi. Someone who for the last several weeks had barely been out of my presence as she had insisted on making certain I had remained in the makeshift medical bay to recover from the injuries I had sustained during the battle.
“Please forgive my lateness, Professor,” she says in a voice that despite its calm nature, hints that should the occasion require, could dominate the room. “I lost track of the time studying the history papers you gave me.”
“No need for apologies,” Strickland replies, “I was just briefing the Captain on the latest progress the research team had been making.”
Turning to me, “Allow me to introduce our senior Captain, Nathan Harrison. He oversees our research ships and is one of the teams leading theoretical researchers.” Strickland announces, “Nathan, this is Amagi. Her presence here is the result of one of the experiments I mentioned a moment ago.”
“A pleasure to meet you,” I say with a smile.
“The Professor has spoken of you often,” Amagi says, “He mentioned that you lead from the front and take a very hands-on approach to the projects you oversee.”
“I certainly try to keep myself busy,” I reply, “Being able to have full control of the ship certainly makes the research side of my job easier given I have a greater control over the variables.”
Amagi nods silently in agreement.
“Would I be correct in assuming that the larger of the two cruisers anchored off shore is yours?” I enquire.
“You assume correctly,” Amagi replies, “Are you familiar with Japanese Naval History, Captain?”
“I have a very limited knowledge when it comes to naval history or even tactics for that matter,” I admit, “However I’m certainly learning a lot recently given the events of the past several months.”
“From how the Professor explained my arrival here and the arrival of the other members of the fleet,” Amagi explains, “It would seem that the cubes used in my creation have taken the form from my original design.”
“Your original design?” I ask.
“My ship was original designed to be a battle cruiser, before an attempted conversion to an aircraft carrier was halted due to my hull being badly damaged,” Amagi replies.
Before I can reply, the phone on the table beside the Professor buzzes. Picking it up, the Professor listens in silence before speaking, “We’ll be over in the minute.”
“Problem?” I ask seeing the worried look on the Professors face.
“Maybe,’ he replies, “The radio guys are picking up a radio call from the Global Explorer. They say it sounds like a distress call.”
**
Crossing the room to where one of the team’s radio operators was listening closely through a headset. As we approached, he held up a hand to prevent any of us from speaking. After a brief pause, he removed the headset and turned to face us. “I have cleaned up the recording as much as possible. But there is a lot of static.”
“Play it,” Strickland says.
‘Glo..l Explorer .. Midway. Encount.. hostile ….. Attack.. Sink… Host… head… fo. Mi..ay. Se..nt..n hour. No..h w.st. R.n’
Sharing a look with the Professor as I mentally replayed the message in my head filling it the blanks with the most logical word. As I realized the full message my eyes widened in shock. Going to the nearest computer and sliding the operator out of the way, I rapidly log into the facility’s secure server.
As the opening page loads on the monitor, I take note of the spinning icon in the lower left corner of the screen. Double clicking on the icon, my worst fears are confirmed. “The Global Explorer is dumping its logs onto the server,” I report.
“What does that mean?” I hear Amagi ask in confusion.
“It’s the last action taken before abandoning ship,” I reply, “It’s either manually activated by one of the senior crew before they leave the bridge, or automatically triggered if the ships internal sensors detect multiple compartments flooding.”
“Any chance that it’s a false alarm?” the Professor asks.
“None,” I reply, scrolling through the data logs, barely giving them time to finish loading before moving to the next. “I don’t know what happened out there. But the engine room temperature spiked to over a thousand degrees before dropping down to eleven. Both the forward cargo compartment and rear loading deck compartment sensors are indicating flooding. And the trim sensors are showing a forty-degree list to starboard.”
Looking away from the computer and taking a deep breath to compose my thoughts, “That and the radio message,” I say, “It was definitely Jim. He clearly said hostile and attack and that whoever they were, are headed this way.”
**
Standing in the conference room fifteen minutes later, the realization that with the apparent loss of the Global Explorer and the loss of the Intrepid and the very real possibility of a hostile enemy closing in on Midway, the team stationed here had lost both main pre-planned escape options we had prepared for in situations that required the rapid evacuation of the atoll.
Behind me I hear various people entering the conference room and taking a seat. As the scrapping of chairs being moved dies down, I turn to face those gathered. Before I can speak, a couple of late arrivals step in through the open door.
The final member of this group is a young woman with short, light peach coloured hair. Who on seeing me, turned away from the group and ran straight for me. On reaching me she wrapped both arms around me drawing me into a tight embrace.
“I see you’ve met Roon,” I hear the Professor call from the doorway as he enters the room.
“So it would seem,” I struggle to reply, “I take it she is the second result of your experiments,” I add.
“Yes,” Strickland replies joining me at the front of the room, “It would seem that she’s a hugger.”
“Would it be possible to have my body back please?” I ask.
Slowly releasing me, Roon steps back, before silently re-joining the others seated in the room.
“I think she likes you,” The Professor comments.
“What makes you say that?” I ask gently feeling my ribs which feel like they are on fire.
“The fact she followed your request,” Strickland answers, “You’re the first who’s been able to get through to her.”
“That’s great,” I mutter sarcastically, “We just need to work on her introductions then. I swear she just re-broke my ribs.”
“If its any consolation,” Strickland begins, “Her combat prowess is second to none based on what little we’ve learned to date.”
Shaking me head in quiet disbelief at the Professor’s continued unyielding push for results rather than showing any concern for how those results were obtained. I scanned the room to find that everyone was looking in my direction.
Everyone save for Akagi. Who was staring through narrowed eyes towards Roon sitting a few rows away.
Clearing my throat, “As some of you may already know. We have received a warning of a possible hostile enemy that is heading straight for us,” I explain, “To those of you who are in senior positions. I need you to wind up any work your departments are working on. And execute our evacuation protocols.”
“Where are we going?” someone from the back of the room calls out.
“The team will evacuate towards Hawaii,” I reply, “There they will either report in to the Navy Yard. Or if advised carry on to the main land.”
As I finish this brief explanation. Over half of those gathered, stand up and walk out to begin the evacuation. As the door closes behind the last of them Professor Strickland speaks up, “Do you really intend to run?”
Looking across at the Professor I reply, “I intend for you and the others to run. In case the rest of us fail to stop the enemy from reaching Midway.”

I ended up ordering LSD online along with MDMA and some THC edibles, I am pretty inexperienced with drugs as I only started experimenting with them after I fell into a depression and I got very interested in testing out more substances. So it was about 8:00pm and I was really bored so I decided I wanted to test out my new “toys”. First I took 1 tab of LSD(100ug) along side 100mg of pure MDMA and 50mg of THC in the form of a capsule, I am quite an impatient person and I mustered up this bright idea to take 3 more tabs of acid(100ug each) and oh god was that a mistake, I quickly felt the affects of the LSD run through my system, I walked to my bathroom and I heard my mom call out my name and I was convinced it was a hallucination so I walked back to my room without responding or going to see what she wanted and it felt as if I had teleported to my room I forgot that I had even went to the bathroom (I think it was the THC that made me forget I had left my room), I went to lay down in my bed to put on a show or listen to music and my mom walked in and started questioning me and confronting me about condoms she had found in my trash(I am quite young so she wasn’t pleased) and I was just sitting there petrified hiding my face under my duvet waiting for her to leave I looked up at her sitting on the side of my bed and two lanky, boney and veiny arms with talons on the end protruded from her back and started snipping at me, at this point I was both amazed and completely terrified as I’ve never experienced anything like this. Shortly after my mom left my room I started listening to music and it seemed the speed of the song, the pitch and the volume kept changing after each beat and it sounded terrible, it didn’t even sound like music at that point, I quickly shut it off and just sat there looking at my chest and arms, my arm hair grew rapidly and moved in random directions, my skin seemed to separate from my muscle and flesh and the space between started inflating, my skin had a blue hue and was almost transparent, I could see my bones and they had a bright orange outline and glow, and I looked at my chest and the same was happening with my chest hair, rib cage and skin, I could feel it too, it wasn’t painful at all it was somewhat pleasant, it felt slightly cold and I could feel the inflation. After I was done staring at that for about 1-4 hours (I had no concept of time😭) I looked at my d*ck and it started to morph into a mushroom and small black bugs started crawling out of it, usually I am extremely terrified of bugs but this didn’t seem to bother me as I knew it was just a hallucination, when I looked at things such as my arm or the wall it would seem as if I was becoming that object, it would feel like my vision was hyper focused on that one thing and would be zoomed in. Long story short I sat there for about 14 hours staring at things and watching TikTok. I was well into the next day by now and I was still having hallucinations, they seemed to be much less intense but I still had the psychological effects of the LSD and I was wildly uncomfortable and irritated that the trip had not ended yet, I slowly spiralled into madness scrounging the internet for information to stop the trip, I kept trying to fall asleep or find a way to calm myself and nothing worked, I laid down and crawled under my duvet crying and praying to god it would end. I had somehow convinced myself my girlfriend was going to leave me and I wrote down a bunch of deranged messages to myself in my phones note saying if I didn’t get her back my life would be over, I then spam texted my girlfriend begging her to save me but I got no response because she was sleeping and I then came to the conclusion she had died and I had to pray to revive her and bring her back from the afterlife, still no response then I had just thought it was all over and she’d never be back so I sat in my bed surrounded by pillows and blankets for some reason😭and cried to god asking why he had done this to me, at this point I was about 19 hours into my trip and I thought it was literally never going to end and that I was permanently insane because I had read online trips usually last 12 hours at most. Eventually I slightly calmed myself down and listened to music even though It still sounded awful, and I just laid there having random outbursts of extreme sadness and anxiety. I then went and got my dog to try and find some way to comfort myself and it did work a bit, i laid in my bed with my dog for another few hours until like 11:30pm or so and I was so sick of it and I just took a bunch of night time cold medicine and cbd and eventually fell asleep. My trip ended up lasting about 25 hours somehow and it was absolute hell for the final like 12 hours I was just in a state of panic and extreme depression, I plan to take LSD and a magic mushroom chocolate bar with some of my friends in a Few days, I look at this as a learning experience to never do psychedelics alone and to always have some Xanax ready incase I start freaking out😭even though it was terrible past the about half way mark it was still an incredible experience and I will definitely be doing it again. Sorry if this is scattered and terribly written, I am not good at writing stories😭

I ended up ordering LSD online along with MDMA and some THC edibles, I am pretty inexperienced with drugs as I only started experimenting with them after I fell into a depression and I got very interested in testing out more substances. So it was about 8:00pm and I was really bored so I decided I wanted to test out my new “toys”. First I took 1 tab of LSD(100ug) along side 100mg of pure MDMA and 50mg of THC in the form of a capsule, I am quite an impatient person and I mustered up this bright idea to take 3 more tabs of acid(100ug each) and oh god was that a mistake, I quickly felt the affects of the LSD run through my system, I walked to my bathroom and I heard my mom call out my name and I was convinced it was a hallucination so I walked back to my room without responding or going to see what she wanted and it felt as if I had teleported to my room I forgot that I had even went to the bathroom (I think it was the THC that made me forget I had left my room), I went to lay down in my bed to put on a show or listen to music and my mom walked in and started questioning me and confronting me about condoms she had found in my trash(I am quite young so she wasn’t pleased) and I was just sitting there petrified hiding my face under my duvet waiting for her to leave I looked up at her sitting on the side of my bed and two lanky, boney and veiny arms with talons on the end protruded from her back and started snipping at me, at this point I was both amazed and completely terrified as I’ve never experienced anything like this. Shortly after my mom left my room I started listening to music and it seemed the speed of the song, the pitch and the volume kept changing after each beat and it sounded terrible, it didn’t even sound like music at that point, I quickly shut it off and just sat there looking at my chest and arms, my arm hair grew rapidly and moved in random directions, my skin seemed to separate from my muscle and flesh and the space between started inflating, my skin had a blue hue and was almost transparent, I could see my bones and they had a bright orange outline and glow, and I looked at my chest and the same was happening with my chest hair, rib cage and skin, I could feel it too, it wasn’t painful at all it was somewhat pleasant, it felt slightly cold and I could feel the inflation. After I was done staring at that for about 1-4 hours (I had no concept of time😭) I looked at my d*ck and it started to morph into a mushroom and small black bugs started crawling out of it, usually I am extremely terrified of bugs but this didn’t seem to bother me as I knew it was just a hallucination, when I looked at things such as my arm or the wall it would seem as if I was becoming that object, it would feel like my vision was hyper focused on that one thing and would be zoomed in. Long story short I sat there for about 14 hours staring at things and watching TikTok. I was well into the next day by now and I was still having hallucinations, they seemed to be much less intense but I still had the psychological effects of the LSD and I was wildly uncomfortable and irritated that the trip had not ended yet, I slowly spiralled into madness scrounging the internet for information to stop the trip, I kept trying to fall asleep or find a way to calm myself and nothing worked, I laid down and crawled under my duvet crying and praying to god it would end. I had somehow convinced myself my girlfriend was going to leave me and I wrote down a bunch of deranged messages to myself in my phones note saying if I didn’t get her back my life would be over, I then spam texted my girlfriend begging her to save me but I got no response because she was sleeping and I then came to the conclusion she had died and I had to pray to revive her and bring her back from the afterlife, still no response then I had just thought it was all over and she’d never be back so I sat in my bed surrounded by pillows and blankets for some reason😭and cried to god asking why he had done this to me, at this point I was about 19 hours into my trip and I thought it was literally never going to end and that I was permanently insane because I had read online trips usually last 12 hours at most. Eventually I slightly calmed myself down and listened to music even though It still sounded awful, and I just laid there having random outbursts of extreme sadness and anxiety. I then went and got my dog to try and find some way to comfort myself and it did work a bit, i laid in my bed with my dog for another few hours until like 11:30pm or so and I was so sick of it and I just took a bunch of night time cold medicine and cbd and eventually fell asleep. My trip ended up lasting about 25 hours somehow and it was absolute hell for the final like 12 hours I was just in a state of panic and extreme depression, I plan to take LSD and a magic mushroom chocolate bar with some of my friends in a Few days, I look at this as a learning experience to never do psychedelics alone and to always have some Xanax ready incase I start freaking out😭even though it was terrible past the about half way mark it was still an incredible experience and I will definitely be doing it again. Sorry if this is scattered and terribly written, I am not good at writing stories😭

Im going to try to make this short. My best friend asked my dad to barrow money for a "medical emergency " (700$ to be exact). My dad is kind and trusting as we have been friends for over 10+ years. But its been almost a year now and shes only paid him back 100$. What bothers me the most is she tells me about all the stuff she bought or how shes going on a "trip" to vegas,up north est.. we are together alot and i remind her every now and then. But this last time i did i think she felt some type of way because she keeps asking me if im going to vegas but i personally feel like she should be working on paying him back. Iknow its a little excessive but Its been almost a year and we litterly talk everyday. Am i being a crappy friend for wanting her to pay my dad back ? Or for getting mad when she tells me about her new shoes or shopping spree she took her niece on the other day? Cant share screen shots but heres one of the convos when i asked her about a week ago .
Me: Hey girly im super sorry to bug you My dad asked me again if you plan on paying him back even if its 20$ here and there he writes it down to keep track (thats what he does with me) he said at least its showing intentions on paying it back. HER: iam forsure - just keep fucking up.

No, he’s not dead. I just need to get this off my chest. I 18F have a brother 24M who is currently in jail. The brother who lived in my family home over the last couple years isn’t the brother I grew up with. He recently was arrested for stalking and harrassing a girl, and then going to her college with a knife. Like I said, this is not the brother I grew up with. My brother, I’ll call him B for anonymity, has been very mentally ill for a long time now, he has autism and was diagnosed with bpd after jumping off an aquaduct to end his life and surviving it. He got bad in 2019 after he started drinking excessively and that hasn’t changed to now. Now he’s just bitter and horrible and is honestly a scary person. At the start of this month he was arrested and police were coming every day to search his room and ask us for statements. They found some things that they didn’t tell us about at the time, but he had a diary and he had written how he wanted to unalive us all, but that’s not what I wanted to get off my chest. For the past couple days my parents have been cleaning out his room as he is not allowed here anymore. Today I offered to help because my mum is wanting to turn it into an office, which is something she’s been thinking about for awhile but was waiting for B to move out. I went in there and just looked around what used to be my big brothers room and I couldn’t help but to cry. He kept a drawing I made for him when I was younger up on his wardrobe door and so many memories ran through my head. I looked around and it was so overwhelming. I miss the brother I grew up with. Not the person he is now. I ran out crying, it feels like I’m mourning him but he’s still alive. I’m a mess and I feel so conflicted.

Anybody feel like they’re just not good enough to their Mom? My Mom expects so much from me yet despises me. I am constant reminded by this, I even feel it in the morning when I start my day every time. I say good morning -I receive the same “morning” in that monotone voice. She’s a bad communicator and never tell me what the issue is, and when she does, it’s always yelling and then she starts comparing me to girls around my age she knows of. She’ll throw around a frequent saying to make me feel worthless, “There are girls your age who are married and have children and you can’t even cook” (mind you, I cook every day???). I’m 23 and a college student for goodness sake. She’s a complainer, she’s constantly complaining about her life, and me. The amount of times she’s complaining about my appearance and habits... I’m used to it, but it hurts.
The amount of times I’ve heard her say “God why did you give me such useless daughter’s”. It’s everyday and it’s making me miserable, insecure, and depressed honestly. I’ve starved myself from food 6 days during stressful times when she’s been dismissive of me.
She’s controlled me all my life. I’m dead serious. I’ve never stayed out past 9pm, never had a boyfriend (it’s fucked me up because when guys have approached me for my number out in public I get nauseous and scared), haven’t hung out with a friend since I was 13, I’ve never disrespected or fought with anyone in my life, aside from her. I’m so mad that I have been living my life this way. My mom and I have had pretty big fights in the past, she’s gotten physical with me and has hit me a lot as a kid and teenager. A lot of these fights have started because I question her on why she has such a bad attitude towards me, or that I need her kindness (which then she starts calling me unappreciative of everything she’s done for me and that she loves me or whatever) and from then on it just blows up. She reminds me of every past mistake I ever make and it’s always the most minuscule thing ever.
She has a good side where she can be giving, and be very kind towards other people. When we’re out together at an important gathering or whatever like a wedding, she will chat with family members, be happy at functions and SMILE. She will look to see girls around my age, compliment them on how they’re “gorgeous, fashionable, and perfect”. She gives me the worst of the worst stares, and I just have a lot bad memories from events where I should’ve been happy. I have never been out in public with her to go shopping or anything as an adult honestly. Which I miss, because we would have the best time when I was a kid/early teenager. It’s like as I’m getting older she is getting harder on me? I always get the impression she’s trying to belittle me. One thing about her though, she cries sometimes when she prays at night. I know she is unhappy inside.
I’m just so sick of feeling like this. My Dad had his bipolar episodes growing up where he’d erupts occasionally, and it was insane how loud it would get in the house. I’m terrified at the thought of having a partner ever or getting married because of how dysfunctional my parents are and have been. It’s so not worth it. I don’t think it’d ever happen for me, literally my goal is to die alone.
If you’re a parent; please be kind, don’t yell, be loving, and try and have that relationship where you can communicate with them respectfully about any issues you’re having with them.

Owed to medical issues I was in and out of hospital very early in life. I developed a pronounced fear of all kind of doctors as a result.
I was at the dentist like two times in my whole childhood. My parents would not take me and I as a kid had no desire to go to any kind of doctor. Both times I went was due to tooth decay accompanied by severe pain. The visits both were very painful and a really scary and disturbing experience. Painkillers were not a thing back in the day especially not for kids. The doctor was a jerk and much more a butcher than an empathic adult. This was not helpful at all. Dentists would be my boss level of doctor phobia from there.
From my teen years on I suffered from real bad teeth because in addition to not bringing me to a dentist on a regular basis while I was a child my parents did not really look after my dental hygiene. I really was into brushing my teeth when I grew older but the damage was done and no toothpaste or dental floss could repair this, of course.
There were times when I had massive pain. For days or even weeks. I spare all the nasty details but put it like that I gave birth twice (without PDA) and that was nothing in comparison. I sometimes imagined that it would be less painful to get shot in the head.
For years first thing in the morning was checking all teeth with the tounge and see what the status is. The whole thing affected me negatively in so many way and far beyond the physical/medical side of the story. I was so ashamed. My already low self-esteem was getting even lower.
Finally I gathered the strength to go to a dentist. He is a very kind and understanding doctor and most of all a patient one too. It took several sessions in a time frame of 13 month to repair everything. It cost a ridiculous amount of money. But I got through it and paid it all off within a year. I never was happier to pay a bill.
In the first session I thought I would die of fear. In the last session I was simply proud. And I am to this day when I visit my dentist.
I had my regular check yesterday and was proud as heck the whole day. I still do not enjoy going there (although my dentist is a great dentist). But everytime I go I'm like bursting with pride.
Only few understand this and I do not have anybody to share this with. So I just left it here.

Long story short i left my bag downstairs but my mom always kept my stuff in her room if ive forgotten to get my stuff. It wasnt my mom and 100% is my niece.
I went out after the stealing happened, and saw i lost my $50, maybe thay amount is not a big deal but i am a student and every dollar is obviously precious. When i got home i asked my sister, That time my sister found her action suspicious bcs she kept asking if im home and if i knew that i left my bag there. She even kept asking if i was still out.
I wanted to confront her but mind you she got an attitude, always throw tantrums. Shes 9 btw. My mom doesnt let me raise this up to her or her parents, and she said she will pay me that money. yes i care abt the money but at the same time i care abt my niece too. We are very close and i took care of her when she was a little kid. So the next day i had an idea to fake a scenario, told her i need help to get my money back because if i dont get them i will have to give back my car to the shop lol, and if she found them ill give $10 but only if its in a full amount. I could see she looks terrified. Ik my idea will led her fake a scenario too where she acted like she found it under the sofa. Turns out my idea worked out well and the scenario is exactly what i predicted. She gave me the money but it was only $30. Then i said 30 isnt enough for me to keep my car, so i still need help. Then the next day again, after i got back home, she asked if i found the money. Thats where i kinda lost it bcs shes trying to make it sound like shes genuinely concerned so that she doesnt look suspicious.
So i brought her to my room and i said this is gonna be a very calm conversation and im not mad, but i know that u did it (told her why its obvious that it was her) she didnt wanna admit and said "i would never do that, i am scared of stealing money" so i asked her to swear (cus i know kids are scared to say it when they lie) then she threw tantrum again and stormed out of the room.
My mom got mad at me for asking her, she didnt want me to do it cus shes scared the parents mjght get angry at us for accusing their child.
The reason why im posting it here, is i think i just want to know if im doing the right thing and also need some advice on how to sctually tackle this. Thanks guys

Okay so this is probably going to be a pretty long rant about this because I can't get this out of my head, and I really thought I would get some peace of mind but I haven't.
I (19F) have been really close friends with someone online for almost a year now. And well, we haven't really been only friends. I always told him that I don't want to label us as dating because we still know each other only online, but seeing our actions that's kinda what we had been doing, dating.
I really didn't think I'd fall in love with this person, but that's what happened. And he told me the same. He has been one of the best things in my life these past few months. I just really loved his company. Our relationship has had a lot of issues though, we have had pretty bad arguments quite often, and this year I think they got worse. It led to both of us feeling like shit after, but we always reconciled, we sometimes thought if what we're doing is too much for us but I truly never wanted to stop talking with him and neither did he, but we always continued.
Probably a week ago though he told me that maybe this is truly too much now, that he thinks we can't talk to each other anymore, and we also have another personal thing that is affecting us being together a bit (our beliefs being different.) He told me it's probably a really low chance that we could be together, but didn't say that it's a 100% we can't. That made me feel really desperate and I told him I dont want to end things, I love him so much that I'm ready to take the chance even if it's low, I just don't want to lose him.
We kind of stopped talking about that because the conversation got too overwhelming and I told him I need to talk about it some day soon again and he agreed with that, but we hadn't yet. After that, the way he acted felt like shifted even more. His response times got longer and he didn't want to do some things like video call much anymore, and I asked him, does he still like me and does he still want to spend time with me? He told me he does, but the way he acts so distant and whenever he hang out it feels like he's not even enjoying it was just driving me crazy. It affected my mental well-being so much, I was constantly thinking about it and stressing about what's happening to us and how is he feeling and everything about that.
So I decided I have to get this out of my head and tell him how I feel. I told him I'd want to talk about some things but he told me he probably doesn't want to. I tell him I need to talk about it, that it's stressing me out so much, and he still says he doesn't really wanna talk about it. Maybe I should've respected that, I don't know, but it was seriously driving me insane, it was either I explain to him how I feel or I blow up and ghost him, I don't know. I just couldn't take it anymore, so I explained to him how he's made me feel these past few days, how it feels like he doesn't even want to talk with me anymore and that I'd need a bit more than whatever this is from him I guess. He didn't even try to understand my feelings, the whole time he was just against me, saying I am not listening to him and I don't believe him because he told me he does wanna spend time with me and does like me, and saying I forced him to talk about it. I am listening to him, I really am, but even if he tells me that it's not like It makes me feel much better when I know how distant he is acting. And I don't know if I really was wrong to explain how I feel when he didn't really want to, but him saying I forced him to talk at least 3 times just hurts because how can you see it like that when you know in how much pain I have been these past few days because of this. I just couldn't take it anymore.
He was mad the entire conversation, and I told him I'd just need a bit more than what this is because stressing over these things does not affect me well mentally. He told me he can't provide me that, and that he hates when people have expectations of him. Can those really be called expectations? Maybe they are then, but it hurts that he sees them like that when I'd just need a bit more to even feel good in his company. It just hurts so much to read our older conversations and see how different he is acting right now. I also know he has stress about a lot of things so it's probably not nice to be talking about problems like these, but I don't know, it hurts he's not being even a bit understanding of my feelings..
After that I told him if this is really how you feel right now, I think I need some space for a bit. All he answered to me was okay and alright. Maybe I was stupid for expecting something else from him when he's not in a better mindset but Idk. I thought I would get some peace of mind by saying that, but I was wrong. I feel so horrible right now, because I'm so scared of what's happening to us. I still haven't gotten an answer to that from him, so I'm scared what this break might do. Maybe when I go back after some time he really is done with me for good. I don't know if I should try and get over him or If I should just wait for him and have hope for us. I thought space would be a good idea because whatever was going on was really driving me crazy, but I realize that this uncertainty is driving me even more crazy and I'm just so scared. I really don't know what to do. I want to text him so bad but I know I won't even get anything I want from him right now regarding our last conversation. If our relationship is giving me this much stress then I know that it's not healthy, but I can't just let go without even talking about it or getting some certainty of our feelings or something, I don't even know. I just feel so lost with this right now and I can't handle this feeling.
If someone read this whole thing this far, I'm sorry you had to go through with that. I know I am kind of a mess right now, but I'm just so scared of what's happening to us. He has truly been the most important person to me for a longer time now, and I thought I need space but now I'm having even more anxiety. I really just wish he would text me, but I know he won't do that. I am just so lost.
I don't know if I can take advice in this state but if there's someone out there with more experience than me reading this, please tell me a piece of your mind. I would really appreciate it.

For more context, I'm writing a fic about Izuku trying to scientifically give himself a quirk by using other people's quirk cells. (I'll give a link to the full storyline) As a result Izuku needs human expirementation. He is technically kidnapped by the LOV, and is apprenticing under Dr. Garaki.
Now here's my main conflict. I don't think a 15 year old could, especially someone like Izuku, couldnt do human expiremenation. But he does have help. Like izuku didn't kidnap the victims himself, he didn't buy or set up the lab in the warehouse. And while the expirement is mostly Izuku's Dr. Garaki occasionally checks on what Izuku is doing. Izuku will also go to Dr. Garaki with moral problems, and will be manipulated into believing he's doing the right thing.
Also Izuku is nice to his "expirements" he isn't actively aggressive towards them, and does try to "make up" for the treatment by giving them deserts and stuff.
Izuku still wants to be a hero, and he genuinely believes this is the only way he can do it. The only reason AFO hasn't given izuku a quirk and thrown him into UA is that he sees potentional in the expirement. He knows he won't be there forever, so he needs a backup if he's decapitated.
I want Izuku to get "rescued" when he turns 16 so he has enough time to get settled in, and emotionally attached to the others. (Izuku remains a villain throughout, this isn't a redemption fic) And enough time for Katsuki to get suspicious. And for the climax it's more emotional when Izuku becomes a full fledged villain and has to fight hid classmates.
So should I make Izuku a year older and give him a year at UA, or should I keep him at 16 so he has two years of buildup?

Short answer: No. There’s no way it is. People say it is but this community says this when they see something they don’t like.
Ok I simply want to look at the things people are saying are “Killing the game” because I’ve been thinking about it. I simply want to get my opinion out there because I enjoy debate’s when there not simply rude or acting like your stupid.
Ddos attacks: Ok I get this but there’s no reason to be such a whiny brat about the situation when it doesn’t get fixed in your time frame. Game development is hard. Making an online game is even harder. You have to give them time because as much as people would make you out to believe it isn’t something you can fix in a matter of minutes. I believe that BHVR is working there asses off for this.
The infamous loss of The Stranger Things license: Now this may seem like a why are you talking about this moment but you will not believe the amount of people on Twitter with the same exact Steve Harrington profile pictures screaming at the dev’s to bring the license back. If your one of those people please listen to this. It wasn’t BHVR’s fault in anyway you may think it is. If you want to get mad at someone get mad at Netflix.
The ever so fought for title of worst killer’s crown: Ok I like the Skull Merchant I think there fun to play and that their fun. But the people who say this is the worst release EVER are simply wrong. While I admit the design (Mask is whats wrong for me personally) is a little underwhelming this chapter is far from the worst. The bugs where fairly small relative to other chapters. The amount of effort of making 3 new characters one with unique add on’s that change the way they affect their power. A new map as well as changing old maps slightly. Not to mention the amount of polish on animations is simply amazing. Yet people focus on what could have happened and miss the fact that this chapter is no where near a sloppy mess. Look at Binding of Kin or hell the first RE chapter. One is known for being the most buggy chapter while the other made it literally impossible for console users to play the game.
Im wanting to hear your takes on the situation and I might make a part two or something.

this is gonna be a rant!! :)
my 2 years with my boyfriend (i cant mentally call him an ex yet) was really good. there wasn't a lot of bad times. though he would always criticize my intelligence as a joke but then this joke would turn into an insult. i remember december 2021 i was crying on his chest telling him how it really hurts when someone calls me stupid. he told me how he doesn't see me as dumb and that he'll never make that an insult because i care so deeply about it. remembering that really makes me mad and i wanna text him how he's an asshole.
ive been called stupid my whole life because i'm a little slow. stuff doesnt come easily for me. i also stutter and there's a negative connotation that comes with it too. because ive been called stupid my entire life, i actually think im dumb. like i'll fail anyways so trying is pointless. but im actually really good at writing. i got an A in english (language arts) without trying. i was in the gifted program in elementary school AND middle school for reading and writing and i would always score high on government mandatory tests for the subject. i know a lot of people suck at it and knowing that i was good, was the biggest confidence boost ever. knowing that i was actually good at something. but people would always diminish it and i'll always be the dumb little girl.
another thing that pisses me off is that when we graduated high school, i wanted my boyfriend to block his ex girlfriend because she always treated me like i didnt exist. they were still friends and she would always come up to him batting her eyelashes and flirting with him while i was literally holding his arm. im not a confrontational person so i would always subconsciously slide behind him and he said how i should stand up for myself when she does that. i posted about that on reddit and someone said that since he obviously can tell whats going on and i told him how i felt, that he should say something. he never once did. went to lunch with him once and she was at the same place, worst lunch ever. i was never acknowledged. and he knew that i could never tell her to leave or call her names because i hate confrontation, but he didnt care. now that we're over he told me that he wont block me because he's not like me. i was so confused because i dont block people so i asked what he meant, and he was talking about her. now im thinking that he probably unblocked her and they're hanging out again :D
thinking about these 2 things shoves every good thing away into a box and all that's left is anger. he made me think i was really dumb and when i would talk about this with people, i wouldn't tell them how i felt because i knew what they would say. i didn't want them to think that he makes me feel stupid 24/7, because that'd make him look bad. i protected his image heavily with the cost of my self worth. just fuck him dude, he really made me think i was the dumbest person on the planet just because i couldn't understand coding and what a gpu and a motherboard is on a computer.

So I'm just starting season 7 I'm almost finished with episode 1 and I just wanted some opinion and conversation about Phaedra & Apollo Do you feel it was wrong of her (especially given her career as a successful lawyer) to ice him out in his time of need dealing with the wire bank & mail fraud charges he plead & was guilty of committing? My personal opinion on this is that throughout the show Apollo mad it very clear that he was his own man and often times made Phaedra feel shitty for trying to have any say in his bidding and how it affected nit only their marriage but also her public image. So him playing the victim (which is EXACTLY what he did) when she decided to have no parts of dealing with the consequences of his actions do you think she was wrong as a wife?

TW: self harm and addiction. My abusive mom died. How? Well she refused all cancer treatment and drank herself to death. I found out now that a year and half ago she broke her arm never got fixed, all her teeth fell out and still she drank herself to death literally. Until she died she abused nurses who came to try to help her and refused all care.
Where’s my dad in this? Well he is also dying of cancer right now and is terminal. Lung and throat cancer. He didn’t smoke my mom did. He did chose to get help but it didn’t matter. He’s terminal. He left it too long to be treated they said. He left it so long to the point he couldn’t swallow and the tumour was size of a an orange because he didn’t want to give up drinking or his addiction to oxy.
The final f*** you to hurt me was that she knew she was also end of life terminal. Did she want to fix things with me ? No. She said goodbye to the family that would still speak to her. She called my brother who lives across the country and who was also NC for 10 years with my parents to leave everything to him in the will. Which hurts not because it’s about money I don’t care about the money. It’s the fact her own mother my grandma did the same to her and that hurt my mom deeply. It’s the final dig she could do to hurt me one last time.
My brother was always the golden child. So he ran wrote out the Will himself without a lawyer didn’t even do power of attorney just the money part he didn’t even come to see me (I haven’t seen him in 4 years ) . That has me all sorts of confused.
When I asked my brother did mom or dad speak of me ? He said no. She knew she was dying and still didn’t care to fix the years of trauma or to say goodbye. But she did with my brother. She said goodbye .
I didn’t even know she was dying. I didn’t realize my dad was either. My brother didn’t tell me about this visit or either of them were dying neither did my extended family. He didn’t even tell me my mom died until a day after . They all said to me after they were sorry to not tell me? My brother told me I cant be mad he didn’t tell me because he did the best he could and he’s said sorry once what else do I want from him. He can’t take it back. That he loves me.
My dads in the hospital now. I asked my extended family should I go say goodbye for myself; should I make peace does my dad want to see me? I’m being met with no not right now. I’ll just upset him. I called the hospital and they told me he’s alert and cognitively okay he’s laughing and joking with nurses and doctors and FaceTiming family. You know who my dad wanted to say goodbye to? His dog. No joke the brought the dog in to the hospital.
I guess the point of me writing this is that I’m in a stage of unbelievable grief . I can’t understand how my mother could have hated me this much. I tried everything to get both of my parents help. I was my moms therpaist my moms nurse caretaker her everything since I was little. No matter what I did it was never enough: never enough money to give her never enough of anything. I was blamed by my own grandma for how much my mom drank. When I was 15 I was hospitalized for serious self harm problem caused by abuse. Only to be told the abuse was my fault. That she drank because of me because I was a bad daughter . I feel my dad must feel this was too.
How I could cry so much over a women who used to throw knives at me to tell me to go kill myself and cut myself as a child is confusing.
Is there anyone else that has gone through this? Who has had a NC abusive mom die and go through this?
I had a complete mental breakdown. My doctor has me on Ativan right now temporarily to even function and I’ve spoken to crisis have a crisis therpaist appoinment next week. Which helps but not as much as knowing there’s someone out there who has been through this understand.

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Dear Diary,

I was right, they are getting a whole new penal ship to deal with how many convicts are being made. The current mayor is trying to get us to turn over the convicts to the Jecauvian justice system. The people got even more mad about that. Something about hurting kids makes them not true Jecau in the first place, and not deserving protection. Protection from what? It's not like we're going to space the pickpockets or muggers. Just a few months of hard work at an unpleasant task for them. Only murderers and kidnappers have to worry about their lives, and not even the mayor isn't talking about those convicts. The penal ship will be here in a week, and hopefully we'll be gone by then. Did this gang really think we'd just do what they wanted after they attacked us like this? Don't they read history? Like, come on. How dumb can you get?
Interestingly, now that Dr. Doofus has a proper barrister, he's begging to enter a guilty plea. He's practically begging to talk to somebody with authority to go after the poachers. Turns out that he had gang connections, but not the kind that make him more guilty. One of the kids rescued was apparently the heir to his clan, and there are a lot of them on station happy to have the freedom to talk to the authorities now. I can't imagine what it must have been like for him to live with that kind of threat over him all of the time, and no power to deal with it. So that makes our lives a whole lot simpler. It's gross that they let it get this bad. They couldn't even join a better ship so long as the gangers had their clan heir.
Daddy commed back this morning, and Yoiv talked to him. He was upset that Greg was out scouting, so wasn't there to talk, but Daddy says that he's doing just fine with the stress. It makes sense from his story, but I'm still worried. It was good for Yoiv to see Daddy and Uncle Yaem were okay though. He said that the guys the other ships sent were good fighters, better than him. Well, Daddy's a good captain, that's not the same as being a good fighter, but he still rescued all of those kids before the other ships could put together their away teams. The We Sing might get a Star Mark for that. I hope Daddy doesn't refuse.
Still, Yoiv has reverted to wanting to go everywhere holding hands. He hasn't been like this since he was three, and I guess getting ripped away by a ganger would do that. I told him that Sneaky beat up that ganger so bad that he'll never kidnap anyone ever again, and that helped a little. I hope he can recover from it, he was SUPER brave on the planet, and we're all VERY proud of him. We tell him so, but there's something bothering him that he won't talk about.
The good news is that the gangers are surrendering in droves and droves. Possibly because they hope to let all of the justice fall on their leaders, or maybe they just don't like what it means to get in a real fight. Even pirates would have held out longer. Then again, Daddy says Sneaky thinks their tactics were dumb, so maybe they just didn't understand what they got themselves into.
Tomorrow. Please, let everything go back to normal tomorrow.

Log: 6000001.0.17, Personal, Captain Yormdrill

They broke.
We ambushed another large patrol, and the other squadrons took another, and directly after that, three lieutenants lead somewhere between three and four hundred men in a surrender to us, while the other squadrons received five captured lieutenants. It seemed that the lower levels of the gang had finally understood that this was not a law enforcement crackdown that they could scare off with a show of force, or a turf war with another gang that they could win by denying territory. We had come to get them, and their leaders in particular. Some of whom had realized that facing a Magistrate was preferable to taking a plasma bolt to the head the moment they caught a glimpse of the open sky.
One of them was weeping, or rather making a keening noise of relief and grief as they do not have tear ducts, and gazing at the local star. I didn't realize that denying people the sight of their sky could have such a profound impact on the psyche. I suspect Gregory had expected it.
After that, the sizes of the patrols was so small that Gregory ordered the supporting squadrons to hold their fire on the opening salvos of the ambush, to give the gangers a chance to surrender once they realized they were under attack. They invariably took the opportunity, such that Gregory ordered that all but one, himself in our case, Red Leader in the other, hold their fire in case that was enough to encourage a surrender. We disarmed thirteen patrols after inflicting a single casualty, and most of those not lethal.
Then, a group of three lieutenants surrendered with a captured "shot caller." We found them waiting, almost five hundred gangers were kneeling in a park (or what used to be a park at one point I could see some run-down play equipment in one corner) with their weapons in a heap a good thirty paces away from the closest ganger, while the lieutenants covered the female with pistols. Gregory instructed the low level gangers to march in a direction away from our area of operation, and once they were a good five blocks away, they began to split up to likely go to ground with either family or unaffiliated peers.
I spoke to one of the surrendering lieutenants, and he had confirmed that the gang's morale had broken. The mere thought of something as adorable as Gregory lurking in the shadows just waiting to take their heads off had been terrifying enough for over two thirds of the gang's lower members to suddenly be too "sick" to leave home.
The difference in treatment between those officers turned over by their men, and those who had surrendered of their own will was made evident in the view of those low level men being released. So long as they were cooperative, Gregory insisted that they not be physically moved at all, and he instructed that their cells should be furnished with a bed, and be given hot meals. "Honor should be met with honor, even from criminals," he said when someone from Green squad objected. Those who were turned over were treated with deliberate roughness, and Gregory took an opportunity to strike a few of them, which with his strength was likely vey painful.
The surrendering officers were more than willing to provide images taken from inside the building, which we used to create an almost complete map, and information on where further hostages were being kept. It was well that we did not leave yet. It would be wrong to leave innocents in their vile clutches.
The assault begins tomorrow, and apparently the remaining two shot callers and seven lieutenants only have a remaining fifty of their most fanatically loyal subordinates left. Gregory has cautioned us that these are the most dangerous, and least likely to surrender. We assault the building tomorrow.
Almost home.

Mission Log: 6. Date: 1/6/5. Name: Gregory George

Mission: Planetary rescue
Mission objectives:
Rescue Linus from unknown hostiles connected to a shady lawyer
--Linus located on planet
--Shuttle company name determined: Shuttle by Green
---Gang identified
---Gang headquarters identified
---Likely information vector identified
----Information vector obtained
----Large number of gangers in hiding
----Linus has escaped
-----Linus secured
-----Linus has rescued other kidnap victims
-----Exfiltrate Linus and other kidnap victims
------Linus and hostages rescued.
Objective complete
Eliminate or neutralize all hostiles
--One hostile neutralized nonlethally
---One hostile eliminated
----Six hostiles eliminated
----One potential hostile neutralized
-----Eight hostiles eliminated
-----Nine hostiles neutralized
-----Three potential hostiles neutralized
-----Fifty three hostiles eliminated
-----Eight hostiles neutralized
------Fifty eight hostiles eliminated
------Nine hostiles neutralized
-------Two hundred twenty-four hostiles eliminated
-------Two hundred fifteen hostiles neutralized
-------One lieutenant captured
-------Forty three hostiles eliminated
--------Lost count of neutralized hostiles
--------Twelve lieutenants captured
--------One shot caller captured
Teach the criminal elements a lesson
--One example provided
---One demonstration provided
-----Three demonstrations provided
-----Nine examples provided
------Five demonstrations provided
------Eight examples provided
------Two demonstrations proveded
------Nine examples provided
------Two messengers sent
-------Thirteen demonstrations provided
-------Fifty-five examples provided
-------Twenty four messengers sent
-------One responsible party acquired
--------Mass surrenders have begun
--------Thirteen responsible parties acquired
Mission parameters:
Minimize collateral casualties
Minimize collateral property damage
Evade detection by station security
Minimize station damage
Protect allies
Potential Action Plan:
It is time for an assault.
Place Green squad on the exits
A fire team from Blue squad attached to each of the fire teams from Red Squad
Breach at points on third floor at shared walls in adjoining buildings.
Sneaky squad will insert via roof entrance
We will confer and go over the plan before dawn
Observations irrelevant to mission:
Green Leader is such a fucking cocktease. They have this sweet fucking magac that I could make this entire planet fucking tremble in fear with. Shit is, their machinist isn't as good as Uncle. Fuck.
One more day, and it's time to go home.
Jesus commanding a sustainment battalion, I can hardly wait to see Linus again.
It'll be nice to just fucking listen for a while.
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